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Missing my son

Sunday, October 17, 2010

I've been keeping how worried I am about my son to myself. It didn't seem right to burden my friends and family any more than they already are. But the stress of holding the emotions has been starting to wear on me. Not making me eat less unfortunately, but I seem to be having some crazy mood swings(menopause,too)

I wish I could just talk to him, but he's a newlywed and spends his phone time with his wife(which I know in my heart is how it should be) I'm trying to be happy with the news she tells us. I know he probably couldn't tell us much of what he's doing anyway, but just to talk for a couple of minutes would help so much. Afganistan is a whole world away, it makes California seem close.

I'm going to pray for patience and believe that he will be taken care of. I'm going to pray for all the soldiers and their families to have a happy reunion in the near future and I'm going to pray for the gift of a peaceful spirit so that I can sleep better and not worry so much.

It's not so bad during the days at school, surrounded by high school kids, but every once in a while one of them will remind me of him and I start to tear up. Tomorrow my goal is to finish my school work and start on some craft project, maybe a coverlet made of yo-yos for my niece's baby-to-be. If I keep busy maybe the next 9 months will pass quicker.
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    My son has been deployed 5 times. He just returned to Italy from Afghanistan and was later than expected so I had to cancel my plans to visit him in Italy. My son don't call and also has a new wife but I have a way I can talk to him. Does your son have computer access in his free time? My son and I have Yahoo Instant Messenger set up and I can IM him when ever I see him on line. Hang in there, things will be fine.
    2770 days ago
  • RESULTS361AP09
    I'm sorry to hear that your son was deployed. I will be praying for his safe return. In the meantime, I like the idea mentioned above about a scrapbook of things he might be missing out on here. Take lots of pictures, cut out articles, etc. If you are a teacher, I know you probably don't have much spare time, but maybe some volunteer work with the USO or check with the base here & see if there any any military serving here that can't make it home for the holidays. I will send out lots of positive thoughts that your son along with all the rest of our soldiers will return home safely very soon. emoticon
    2771 days ago
    emoticon And welcome to the Military Mamas and Papas team. Believe me, many of us know how it feels. You can't quite put your finger on it... but not hearing for a period of time can lead to anxious thoughts and feelings.

    I got super fit, as I figured the least I could do was get my body in shape and be strong, physically... this also helped with the stress. I don't think I even knew how much I was carrying until the phone call came that he was back on US soil, six weeks ago.

    Praying with you, for your loved ones safety and for the occasional message from him, even if it comes by way of a daughter in law (mine often did).

    2771 days ago
  • LC_SAR
    Awwww, sweetie. Hang in there. As a 28 year old who's moved across the country from my family, I can tell you he's missing you too! And I'm lucky enough to have my husband with me. But I miss my family SO much... probably much more than they would guess. I don't call that often. Life gets busy, you know? And you don't want to tell your family how homesick you are, because you don't want to worry them. And I'm not even in another country, let alone Afghanistan!

    I can tell you that he will absolutely love and appreciate each and every piece of mail, email, care packages (if you're allowed?). Every "just thinking of you" note really helps, even if he doesn't respond, know that it really makes a different.

    In the meantime, think of all the positive things about his being away - think about the lives of the children in Afghanistan, as you make that baby blanket - how different they will be because your son was there helping them. Think of the possibility that the involvement of the troops has prevented another 9/11. Miss him, cry when you need to, but keep your chin up and turn your sadness into positive action (like volunteering with various organizations or sending him a care package or creating a memory scrap book of the year he's missed while he's away).

    Hugs! Hang in there. :)
    2771 days ago
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