What to say?

So...am I really committed? I've SAID that I was committed countless times before, only to quickly forget about it in the face of several things. I think it comes down to these 3 things:

1. It tastes better to eat good, calorie-laden food.
2. It's easier to be lazy than to get up.
3. It's easier to "forget" about my health than to address it.

I know these things aren't truths. They are excuses. Even as a "good" person, I'm full of excuses and I use them when I don't want to be held accountable for my choices and my own well-being.

I'm tired of feeling the burden of being a person of talk-with-no-action. I'm ashamed because I'm sure this comes across to other people. I've always been a quitter. I always do JUST enough to get by.

I am making a 40 day commitment to change this. I know habits take time and I've never been committed enough to take that time. I'd be committed through the hype, than as it died down, so did my steadfastness.

I also plague myself with the thought that it can't really work. I've never dieted and exercised through to any weight loss. I've used other, less healthy ways to lose weight, only to gain it back. I can't lie . . . I still have the thought that diet and exercise just won't work for me. I know this is scientifically false. But, I'm deciding to go the 40 days without questioning whether it's working or not, to prove to myself that it does.