Tuesday, October 12, 2010
To me, sparking has been like learning a new dance. You first learn the feet, and then the arms, and then you review the feet, and the arms, and then you put them together. All along you are getting the rhythm and the feeling of the dance.
I first learned how to drink all of that water. It was important to me to get that piece down. Believe it or not, it took me six weeks to get comfortable with it. But I have had at least eight glasses of water every day since I found the spark site on June 17—even if I found myself drinking two more glasses at 11:00 pm. That was like the arms and hands part of the dance—what my hands were putting in my mouth. I also began to read about nutrition and make better decisions regarding what I was eating. I stopped drinking sodas; I couldn’t fit them in with all that water. I began to feel much better. Longstanding health issues began to improve.
As that habit starting coming online, I started to work more intensely on the feet—how much I was moving. I had an injury in the spring that had left me unable to walk for several weeks. I began to regain my strength and to rebuild my endurance. That, too, was slow.
Going back to the arms and hands, I also began to cut calories and make better food choices. I started logging in my food every day and learned that I wasn’t doing as well nutritionally as I had thought I was. I made some small changes and then some more. I wanted changes that were sustainable, that didn’t make me feel hungry, deprived, and rebellious. On many days, I was consuming more calories than the spark site recommended, but I was eating a lot fewer than I used to.
Although I found logging food on the spark site valuable, it was very time-consuming and very tedious. It was time to begin the rehab for my injury so I put this part aside for awhile to focus again on my feet. I began going to the rehab site and doing the exercised prescribed for me, swimming more, walking more, and working with resistance bands even for a few minutes at a time in my office and while watching TV. I was logging in more and more steps on my pedometer. My fitness minutes steadily increased, and I became much stronger.
This journey has yielded many benefits. I feel better. Seemingly intractable health problems have improved. I have more energy and less anxiety. My fat jeans are in the garage in the Goodwill box, while I am wearing a pair that I could no longer fit into. My posture has improved, so I’m walking taller and look thinner as a result. However, I haven’t sustained a weight loss. I’ve had more than one meltdown after weighing in. I’ve felt like I’ve let myself and my spark team down. I’m moving more and eating less. What will it take?
About a week and a half ago, I went back to logging in my food—the hardest part for me. I find that I am now usually within the spark guidelines with respect to the calories I consume.
Around the end of last week, I got the strong feeling that it is time for my Spark program to take off--that things would finally come together for me. I’m afraid to post this blog. I’m afraid that I’ll weigh in at the end of the week and not show a loss. It’s more important for me to part of the community than it is to look good and successful, so I’m going to post it. Here goes! Couragio!