Heigh-ho, Heigh-ho It's Off to Work I Go"

Another blog and another reference to a song, so much for my creativity. I have not blogged in almost 2 months. I wish that I could attribute my absence to writer's block, but I'm not a writer. By the way, I was wondering why the words to the "Snow White" song were spelled "heigh " instead of "hi". I looked in my trusty old Merriam- Webster's and lo and behold: "heigh-ho is an interjection (takes me back to English grammar and parts of speech) which started to be used in the year 1553 typically to express boredom, weariness, sadness or sometimes as a cry of encouragement." Oh my goodness, I had no idea that those 7 dwarfs were experiencing these emotions and actually they sing "it's home from work we go". I always thought they were going "off to work". I had better take a "Snow White" review course.

Is there any point to my blog? Oh yes there is. You see, I have been out on disability since March 3, 2009. I went back to work for about a week around August 2009 and was placed back on disability. In November of 2008, I was attacked by a patient and my right shoulder was virtually destroyed along with my right knee. It's a long story ! Three surgeries later, I was still off work due to complications. Oh yes life can be so complicated at times.

My physicians recommended permanent disability. Yikes, I knew that there was no way that I could afford to pay a health premium of $700 plus a month and I sure didn't want to go through the hassle of disability rigmarole. I was in such a quandary. I have always worked and usually 2 jobs. I raised 3 kids as a single parent. Oh NO, I thought. This can't be happening...

And then suddenly on September 21st around 4:30PM, I received a phone call and was told to report to work at 7:00 AM the next morning. It made no sense, I had not been released to return to work. Oh well, I figured it was par for the course and I decided to just show up and see what happened. Well, I have been working every day since with the exception of 2 days this past week when I managed to contract a nasty bout of stomach flu and an upper respiratory infection. It has been a comedy of errors. I have been shuffled from place to place. I could write a book just about this whole debacle. What a journey !!

I haven't been "Sparking" nearly as much, some days just spinning the wheel has been my limit. I feel so badly that I have not had time nor energy to stay in touch with my dear Spark friends. I have missed having contact with them. I want to be there for them, to laugh with them, to cry with them and to offer support and encouragement. They have been there for me. They tolerate my wacky sense of humor and they are loyal.

So to each of my fellow "Sparkers", I say "Heigh-ho" and just as my trusty old "Webster" states, I mean that as an expression of sadness, weariness, and as a cry of encouragement. But in my case, it is definitely not an expression of boredom. I am sad that I do not have as much time to spend with you. I am a bit weary from working after so many months of being off - I must admit that I am deconditioned. Yet, this is a cry of encouragement. I WILL SURVIVE ! And I am looking forward to finding the time to get back in touch with each of you and to send you goodies and to just make our "Spark" journey together.

I think of you daily and I wish you all of the best. Thank you for your understanding and patience. Thanks for being who you are. We "Sparkers" are a very fortunate bunch. SPARK PEOPLE RULE !!!