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Yeah, it hasn't been one of my better weeks

Friday, October 08, 2010

I've been horrid about keeping up with exercise and SP. I've been eating fairly well, but I know that eating well isn't the only way to lose weight. I'm hoping to get back on track this weekend.

Some of it has been depression. I've been without my meds for most of the week, which doesn't help matters at all. It makes it so hard for me to motivate myself to do anything. It's part of the reason my apartment is a mess again. On top of that, it's... that time of the month, so I'm mentally and physically on the outs anyway. I know that these are excuses. But it makes it hard for me to push past it anyway to do what I need to. The only thing I have been keeping up with is my Swap-Botting. Because it's easy for me to sit at the computer and do so many of the things that I need to do.

I'm trying to work on my plan for next week. I'm going to get into the habit of exercising first thing in the morning while my husband is getting ready for work. I'm going to alternate strength and cardio like I should be. I'm going to ask Rich if he can start a load of laundry while I'm working out. As soon as that is finished, I'm going to work on one cleaning item. Then I'm going to sit down to do some computer work/update my info on SP. I'm going to try to get back to the 15 on/15 off schedule of cleaning and fun.

I also need to remember to look at my FlyLady calendar so I can remember what I need to do cleaning-wise on a daily basis. And I need to remember to schedule in fun.

It depresses me a bit that I need to actually schedule my life right now, down to scheduling to have fun. I've always preferred to be spontaneous. But I'm not getting anything done by being spontaneous. And I can't continue on this way - my weight can't take it, my mind can't take it and my spirit can't take it.

I'm willing to take suggestions. Anyone that can give me ideas of how to get myself on track, I'll appreciate the help. Anyone that wants to help keep me accountable, I'd appreciate that. Whether it's just for the weight-loss (which I am getting a bit of thanks to THE_NEW_ME's 31 day challenge and the family Biggest Loser) or house cleaning or crafting or anything else. I can use help.
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  • REYVAAN
    Sounds like you've got the right frame of mind to do the right thing. Make sure you're forcing yourself to do something enjoyable as well as productive. Maybe go for a nice walk after decluttering (I don't know what your weather is like where you are...)?
    I have found that I love logging my food - I don't know why. I feel like I"m being productive and sticking with something. When I'm SUPER productive, I set up a week's worth of meals on SP and actually do a shopping list (Ha! I HATE the grocery store). Been pretty good about it lately and I'm pretty happy with that.

    At any rate, what can I do to help be your accountability partner?
    2925 days ago
  • THENEWAMBER
    Hi Reyvaan,

    Thanks so much for your insight. You hit the nail on the head with the depression. It's such a horrid cycle - I know that exercising helps push it away, but getting the motivation to exercise when I'm depressed... I'm trying to force myself to do something at least. I may not get traditional exercise daily, but I am trying to do something productive. This morning, I worked on decluttering part of my dining room. It took me about an hour and a half, but then I was able to get a few more things done. This is the first time I've been on the computer all morning (which is highly unusual, as I usually hop on as soon as I get up.)

    I definitely could use an accountability partner with all of it. Because, as I said to my sister-in-law, when I have someone to talk to and is expecting to hear from me, it makes me more excited. Thanks for the offer.

    Now I'd better do a quick blog post and log my breakfast That's where my accountability is going to start! emoticon emoticon
    2925 days ago
  • REYVAAN
    Hey Amber,
    I see you on the boards sometime, and your blog caught my eye. I think you're going through something that a lot of us go through when we're trying to better yourself. The reasons vary; I always fall prey to an illness that forces me to stop exercising, then I'm never motivated enough to start back up. I just got over a very persistent sickness and am forcing myself to get back into it this time!
    You seem to have the added complication of depression. I have someone very close to me who suffers from clinical depression. It is just merciless in how it affects your life, so I feel for you. From what I understand, exercise has positive effects, but getting the motivation to do this is so hard. It ends up being a nasty cycle.
    You mentioned that it depressed you that you had to "schedule" fun time. I think that it's great that you have come to this solution! In fact, that would have been my suggestion. We schedule stuff that we need to do to pay the bills, take care of the kids (pets, in my case) and we schedule appointments; but why don't we schedule the important stuff - stuff that makes US be better, healthier or happier?
    At any rate, your blog spoke to me because i know someone who goes through what you go through (plus you're a like-minded sparker). If there's anything I can do to help, please let me know. If you need an accountability partner, etc., I think it would help me too!
    2927 days ago
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