Looking for the person I was always meant to be!

Welcome friends!

It's good to have found this site. Finding Sparks-people has given me hope of finding folks like me who are struggling to battle the obesity problem. Folks who-like me might share some of the health issues I have.
OK, now about me...I'll try to make it brief.
All my life I have struggled with my weight, I was teased and ridiculed by class-mates and family alike. Never did I get the support or praise I so desperately sought.
My employment was much the same-although many times overqualified I endeavored to further enhance my employment skills in the hopes that I might be considered for the next advancement opportunity. But as was typical I never achieved this personal goal.
I found solace for my damaged self-esteem in food and cigarettes. Self destructive behavior I know--and I knew then but it was my only vice to venting my pain and frustrations. Surely I am not the only one out there who has used these vices for their own reasons?
My current health problems have exacerbated and forced me to fully realize and accept the fact that If I do not loose weight FAST I may loose my legs, I may die! My doctor suggested the weight loss surgery-which I may have to consent to, but first I wanted to try on my own one last time. I have tried almost every diet out there but nothing has worked. Plus, I realized too that all the other diets I have tried all lacked one very important weight loss ingredient...they did not offer 24/7 support. Thus, like my life-until now, (I Hope) the only thing with me 24/7, and that would never leave me...was food and cigarettes! This is a very sad/depressing thought!
Well, enough! I am here to loose weight, learn how to eat healthy but tasty foods but more importantly, meet people and make true friends! So...Thanks for reading my crash course on my life history! LOL
If you wish to read more of my blogs, I promise they won't be as boring and hum-drum as this was. ;-)