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Like christmas....

Friday, October 08, 2010

...today I will see my daughter for the first time since the beginning of september, my expectations are WAY too high and I have to reason with myself because it is risky to expect too much. But I really really long for her, I have been crying a lot the past week just because I miss her so much.

I had a seminar booked for tomorrow that has been moved and I have not planned our weekend together. I have not told her that I bought a house for us, I´v talked to the current owner and will borrow the key to show her around. And I am really curious of her reactions – the poor kid has a mother that will jump around her like a dog with wagging tail and flopping ears "isn´t it nice? huh? Huh? Huh?....

I will have to reimnd myself that it is ME being happy for this house, it is a part of my turning my life as good as I want it, and what she thinks and how it works for her, is out of my reach.

I admit that for the moment I don´t live in the precense, I am about eight hours ahead...
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  • MAGNOLIA416
    Hope you have a nice visit, I'm sure she'll appreciate how cool the house news is! But if she doesn't it's just because she's too young to understand how big that is. Har det bra!
    3698 days ago
  • INGMARIE
    I am so glad you get to spend timewith your daughter.
    Just enjoy the time with her and have some fun I am sure she will like the house just as much as you.

    Enjoy. emoticon
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    3699 days ago
  • TIGGERIFFIC123
    Enjoy every single moment of your time together...a weekend to make new memories!! I am sure she is going to be just as excited to see you as you are to see her...have fun!!

    Rhonda
    3700 days ago
  • KAMAPERRY
    Just relax and enjoy yourself with your daughter! emoticon
    3701 days ago
  • GATOR12
    I'M ALSO SO BAD ABOUT TRYING TO PLEASE OTHERS MORE THAN MYSELF. IT'S CALLED CO-DEPENDENCY. WHEN I STARTED GOING TO AL-ANON MEETINGS I FINALLY HAD A DISEASE TITLE FOR MY DISEASE. (SON IS ALCOHOLIC) BUT WE JUST CAN CHANGE OURSELVES AND I'M SURE SHE WILL LOVE YOU & HOUSE BUT YOU LOVE IT AND THAT'S WHAT'S IMPORTANT. ENJOY HER TO THE UTMOST. TREASURE THE TIME!! YOU ARE WORTH IT. LIKE CHRISTMAS!! emoticon emoticon
    3701 days ago
  • SILLYHP1953
    I am happy for you...about seeing your daughter (how old is she?) and your new house. Hang on to your joyous feelings and let us know how things go. I'll be thinking of you!

    emoticon Phyllis
    3701 days ago
  • JOCALAT
    enjoy your time with your daughter!!
    3701 days ago
  • ONEKIDSMOM
    Oh, my heart rate rose just reading this and thinking about how I so anticipate phone calls, visits, instant messages from my son. While he was out of the country for so long, I changed my whole habits so I'd be available for those IMs on the weekend!

    And when he got back... I was so like you in anticipation and expectations and anxiety over how he would react to changes I'd made while he was away.

    You're doing great. Stay centered on what you said: you are making positive changes for you, and your daughter will respond however she responds... don't take it as a grade or a "change back" message. Keep on loving, mom!

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    3701 days ago
  • CHRISTURTLE
    I know only too well how much those visits mean. Enjoy every moment with her, even if her reaction to the house isn't as excited as you feel about it. Houses are just houses to anyone who hasn't learned all about the feeling of having finally bought their own house, rather than living in someone else's. You are doing so well, you are such an inspiration to me and to many other Spark friends, because you have faced all these recent difficulties and stood strong. We all make small mistakes at those times, but you realized this time it wasn't such a big thing, and picked yourself up next morning and carried on. Whether or not you realize it, that isn't the way you would have felt about it even 6 months ago.
    Be proud of your achievements, each and every one of them,
    Hugs,
    Chris. emoticon
    3701 days ago
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