Thursday, October 07, 2010
I set Thursday as my weigh-in day, mainly because it was the first day I met with the personal trainer to workout and so many other people I knew on Spark were weighing in on Thursday I thought that it was just be easier to weigh-in on the same day.
So I step on the scales and low and behold I lost 2 pounds!
Okay, so part of me wants to jump up and down and scream, "look what I did", "I actually did it", "do you see", "look at me", "I can actually do it!" and then there is the other part of me. The part that says, well, at this rate it will take just about a year or so to reach your target goal, do you realize how long that is? and you have been in the gym everyday this week and you only lost two pounds.
Okay, so I know this is real life. I know that 2 pounds a week it a healthy rate, and that people who lose 2 pounds a week are more likely to keep it off than those who lose too rapidly. I know all these things, it's just those little demons inside that are trying to keep me overweight and unhappy. And I know that it is real life and I shouldn't be expecting "Biggest Loser" like numbers, so then why was ? Why was I hoping to see some hugh number on the scale today, that I had made it so much closer to my goal, that it wasn't going to take so long.
I think that is the reason, it is a long journey. Yes I put the weight on faster than I am taking it off, but there is a reason for that, it is just plain easier to put it on than take it off. And yes, I have a hugh goal out there in the distance, but that goal is in the distance, I have smaller goals to make to get up too it. It is so easy to get knocked down my the length of the journey, the time or the progress and that is what knocks us off the tack so often, but I have to remind myself that weight-loss is like faith, it is a jourey, not an end, you always are traveling the road of faith learning and living and loving, and it never ends until the end of life, and that is the same for weight loss, it is a journey, you may reach a goal, but there is still a journey in that, you can't just reach a goal and forget everything you did to get to that goal, or you'll be right back at the beginning of the journey again.
This is a life change, not just a short-term fix, and I need to remind myself that no matter how long it takes, it is the things I learn, the friends I make and the places I go on this journey that will matter the most, not the time that it takes to take the journey.