Lost it...

Wednesday, October 06, 2010

... yesterday I did not follow my meal plan, had an "eating incident" at night and all my good intentions and plans to avoid it just disappeared. Interesting.

As a comfort my book "overcoming binge eating" states that binges are sort of a normal thing when you try to change and it will probably take a long time to get rid of them altogether.

What happened today was that I ate a smaller breakfast than normal, I was still full from yesterday. The rest of the day has been as planned and I have not been hungry.

I had a terrible call from my chartered accountant, she told me that I will have to pay an awful amount of money for old sins. Taxes and VAT... the amount about the same as the cash payment on my house... I cried a lot but after a while of counting and budgeting found that I can pay both the house and the debts – but then I have nothing to pay the accountant with... and no money for the new fridge I need... it was a serious setback and I have a hard time coping but maybe I´ll get through it without having to face official bankruptcy...

The next blow was that I have another seminar coming up that nobody signed up for...what IS it with people? Now it is more important than ever that I get every penny for those seminars... I have cried and despaired a while over this too, but now I have a plan B and have some hope again.

It is interesting that when all this drama starts I seem to be in no danger of eating. The craving to overeat starts when I get bored and everything seems to be working.
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    Dear you! That's a lot to face. Money problems are such a downer. Glad you've got a good attitude, you can do it!
    3707 days ago
    I still have those times too. We are human, just don't beat yourself up and move on emoticon emoticon
    3708 days ago
    You did well, you had your cry and you did your worrying and you worked out what you can and can't do. Now you just have to take a step back from all the worries and trust that things will work out. I know when things seemed to be at their worst for me, that I couldn't possibly get through whatever it was I was facing, that something always happened to help make things better. I've been that way more times than I care to count, and each time without fail I was helped some how. Just trust, as I say, and I'm sure the same will happen the same way for you.

    Just remember, we are never asked to deal with anything more than we can cope with, whether or not we realize it at the time.

    Hugs, '
    3708 days ago
    Plan b, plan c and.....Sometimes the plan has to change. I'm looking for another job and/or a whole new way of earning a living. There was some anxiety stress eating which I then made up for later. I think this is ok as long as we stop and figure that there is a plan b or... and stop eating. It does take some time as you can see. Do a little breathin, a little walking these small things do help. Take care.
    3708 days ago
  • SILLYHP1953
    Glad to hear you're back on track today with food.
    I don't even know what to say about the seminar and taxes and VAT (I don't know what that is, but doesn't sound good). Once I've done everything I can do about something in my life, I try to turn it over higher power. Just let go of it.

    emoticon Phyllis
    3708 days ago
  • GATOR12
    I'm not there yet!! I still hve those times, maybe less often, where I binge in evenings. But I get so mad at myself for the set back. I hate myself and although I don't let it ruin my next day, I can sure have a negative talking to self and call me everything in book. Hopefully someday, I can just take it in stride and chalk it up to a bad evening, day whatever. I have enough negative talk and don't need more.
    Sounds like you have had plenty on your plate. Praying for income sources for you and better luck. Brenda
    3708 days ago
    Hang in there..
    3708 days ago
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