Seriously??? This is ridiculous
Monday, October 04, 2010
This plateau has GOT to stop. I've been on this same ride for over two months. I've got another tracker and at ONE pound (now that's a reasonable ONE pound) per week, I should be down at least six pounds from where I am. I haven't dropped ANYTHING. The inches are not moving either, although I'm back on the weights. I'm eating within range, I'm exercising. I've added my upper body weight training back in slowly so as to not re-injure the elbow. This has GOT to stop, because I need something freaking positive to happen in my life right now.
My personal life is in shambles. I despise my husband right now. ( I guess despise is a little strong, I'm tired of the some of his reactions to life including catering to his ex-wife and hurting me in the process). Financial life is totally in ruins. My work situation is stressful at best. I've managed to NOT stop exercising and my eating has been well within acceptable calorie limits. I haven't gone over enough to gain and I've actually been within loss ranges for the amount of exercise I do. I've shaken up my exercise routine more than once.
I'm beyond frustrated. and I know I shouldn't be comparing or stating my jealousy, but I see some blogs stating how oh my gosh, they aren't losing 3 pounds a week any more... puhleeze, I never even saw 2 pounds a week, much less 3.
I'm just ANGRY, ANGRY, FRUSTRATED, ready to quit this site, all sites and just do this on my own again. Last time I managed it on my own with no change in eating hab its and lost freaking 30 pounds in six months. I'm now at seven months and barely 22 pounds.
I've reset all my trackers as if I've lost NOTHING. It's the only thing I can think of doing. Just act like I'm starting all over. I'm just a freaking STRESS case right now with nowhere to turn. My friends are in their own worlds, I have no husband to count on and no family.. and I'm so tired of this.