There is candy in the freezer...
Thursday, September 30, 2010
and it's calling my name. I'm saying no, but it's really not easy. And yeah, I could have one, but honestly, I wouldn't stop at one, I know myself.
Cravings are insane. The urge gets overwhelming. I try and remind myself why I am doing this. What do I really want, a piece (or several pieces of candy)? Really, will it make me happy? NO!
Here is what I want-
*I want to finish college (I went back this year) and possibly even work on getting a Masters degree. Then of course I would like to be healthy so that I can be around for years doing what I love. When I think of job interviews I don't want my weight to be something that keeps me down because I feel so bad about myself and uncomfortable in my own skin.
*I want to shop at modcloth.com. They have no plus size clothes.
*I want to shop and Ann Taylor.
*I want to shop with friends and not be embarrassed because I have to go to the "womens" section.
*I want to sit down and not feel that stomach bulge pushing up against me.
*I want to walk up a flight of stairs and NOT be winded.
OK, I think I now know that I do not want the candy in the freezer. OK, whew! Temptation diverted. That actually helped.