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Starting Over

Monday, September 27, 2010

So it's been an interesting couple of weeks. And I'm not going to rehash them. I am just going to say that I got on the scale last week and really looked at what it read and actually thought about it. You know how that creep starts, a pound, two pounds...and before you know it, you've gained a whole lot of weight? Well, in my interest to NOT live by the scale, I ignored it when I did step on it, and not so suddenly (but in my head it's suddenly, because I gave myself permission to really think about what it was saying) it's up, way up.

So first, I'm going to take that "I don't want to get too bogged down by worrying about the scale" excuse and throw it out the window. To be fair to myself, that was a fairly valid statement quite a while back, but has long since ceased being a true concern. All it did, once I turned off that vigilant attitude, was give me a reason to ignore the cold, hard reality of that scale. So now it is gone.

Second, I have recorded my weight for THE FIRST TIME IN ALMOST A YEAR. It's not pretty, but it's real, and that's that.

Third, I am not going to beat myself up, as between bouts of stuffing my face, that's what I've been doing, and when I ask myself "so how's that been working out for you?" the answer is, of course, it hasn't.

Fourth, because I have this inner need to keep every record of everything I've ever recorded (must be the City Clerk in me, this need to preserve anything), I have not completely re-set my goals, but I have adjusted them within the framework of Spark.

And fifth, I am starting over. It is as simple as that. Truth be told, I actually began this last week, as I lost 2 lbs from last Monday to this Monday. Was it a perfect week? Heck no, but it was a whole lot better than the week before. Baby steps, Tina, baby steps..

and so it begins..

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  • LOVINGLINDA
    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3690 days ago
  • JKPONYGIRL
    Baby Steps every day. emoticon
    3711 days ago
  • _RAMONA
    Battle on, Beautiful!

    {{{{{{{{ HUGS }}}}}}}}}
    and love,
    Ramona
    3713 days ago
  • OMELYN
    I just finished "The Art of Racing in the Rain" the most repeated "phrase" in that book is (to paraphrase) "You cannot finish the race if you do not stay in it." another was "Sometimes it is not as important to win, as it is to finish." Pretty deep if you think about it... it was inregard to driving smart, knowing what was ahead and reacting to it in time to stay "off the wall".

    Kinda like the babysteps...
    Know you're not "enjoying" this, I'm proud of you if we could shake up our diverse skills of exercise (you) and food control (me) we would be tough to reckon with... as it is we will support each other to the healthier women we aspire to be.

    LOVE and support!
    Lynn
    PS... guess I'm gonna have to visit my "freind" MR. Scale, too. I don't want to know. It wasn't great in July, and I haven't done anything to make it better.
    3714 days ago

    Comment edited on: 9/27/2010 10:12:10 PM
  • JOANN562
    Oh that so sounds like me awhile ago...ignoring the scale & hubby telling me I looked awesome...but deep down I was not happy with the number.
    That is awesome that you are now recording it. Nothing more honest then that. Facts are facts. & emoticon JOB on the 2lb loss in a week! emoticon
    & FYI, the 'perfect' weeks are few. Point is that you don't throw in the towel & you keep moving forward with your efforts.
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    3714 days ago
  • DETERMINEDJANET
    I've had to do this same activity recently so I'm sending you a hug for all the emotions it brings but I'm also sending you a hug for moving forward with baby steps! Two pounds gone too! Yeah!! I have been back at it for two weeks now and I have to give myself pep talks every day and sometimes several times within that day! We can do this!
    3714 days ago
  • no profile photo CD6473944
    I am finding it is a DAILY commitment! emoticon
    3714 days ago
  • CYNEDRA
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    One step at a time. Sometimes we have to sit back a while before we take those steps, but if you keep taking them, it will work.
    3714 days ago
  • SUETINGE
    One baby step at a time, you will get there.
    3714 days ago
  • MUSICMOMOF2
    Baby steps are the way to go! You can do it!!
    3714 days ago
  • GIRLINMOTION
    Baby steps will get yo there, slowly but surely. May not be in record time, but it can get you across the finish line.
    3714 days ago
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