I have recently discovered, most of my ''SIZE'' issues were in my head. I had a breast reduction on Aug,31 2010, something I contemplated for many years, and walked out of the hospital two days later feeling so light and thin I couldn't stop grinning.
I was worried I would morn the large breasts because I felt defined by them, it was the first thing you saw when you met me. Everything in my life revolved around my breast size Clothes, Activities,Crowded Places, eating out ( BEING ABLE TO IT CLOSE ENOUGH TO THE TABLE), carrying things, Bending down, going to the beach, school activities with my children...I could go on and on. I found myself trying to find a conservative look so as not to draw attention to my Breasts, or accidentally expose them.....with 3 active boys and a lot of their friends on overnights I never wanted to embarrass them either. This consumed me, yet at the same time I was afraid, with smaller breasts would I then feel inadequate ?
Well I took the chance, and the only thing I can say is ''why the heck didn't I do this after my last child was born ! ''
The weight that has been lifted from both my physical and emotional body is unimaginable. I see a very different person in the mirror, and I love her. The clothing situation alone would have been enough, But I feel free !!! and so young......I know it sounds crazy but when I grab a t-shirt and jeans the only check in the mirror is to smile in amazement. No more constant checking to make sure the girls are safely tucked inside the bra!
All the physical activity and clean healthy living in the past year combined with this life changing surgery has sent me free ! I have an upper body with a waistline, I 'm not all boobs and legs. Although my weight is still hovering 160 lbs +- a few , I look ...to me.... thin!
I started working out again this week, taking my time, my husband is doing another round of P90X, our boys are waiting for track and field to start, and we started cooking together as a family. This way everyone knows what is in their food, prep work as well as the actual cooking time seems less of a chore, and I think when we sit to eat together the meal is appreciated more.
I think it's time to set new goals, I can tuck my shirt in '' if I want to '', am pleased with the person smiling back at me in the mirror, and not concerned at all about losing more weight. Hmmmmm....... have to put some thought into that !
thanx to Sparkpeople, and all of your support.......