Tuesday, September 21, 2010
So I have never been a blogger but I thought that this site has inspired me to do things that I have never done before so I would try. I am not sure if anyone is going to read this but I am going to put it out into the universe anyways. I am not comfortable talking about myself but I am going to try.
I am not sure if I ever had a healthy relationship with food from the beginning. My mom used to say that she couldn't breast feed me because I would get sick. I had to be put on formula and I think it was all downhill from there. haha
My mom had a bad relationship with food and I don't think that helped and I know that she tried not to let it effect me but I was put on my first DIET when I was 8. Looking back I wasn't a big kid as much as I was a little bigger than the others. Anyhow, I went on and off diets all the way through high school when I went to extremes and almost stopped eating. I of course was not able to maintain that way of eating and ended up binging and then eventually started purging.
I was bulimic for over ten years and then went to treatment. When I turned 30 I realized that something had to change. I had to change. I guess you could say that it was my ROCK BOTTOM. I decided I had to get healthy even if I didn't lose any weight. Slowly but surely I started to do things that were better for me. Give up pop and sugar and drink water and take a multivitamin. I then started walking a little everyday and then a little more until I was walking a mile a day and then two.
I am down to 191 and I can say that I haven't seen that number in forever. I am trying to do things that make me feel good mentally, spiritually, as well as physically.
So in a nutshell that is my story. I know it is not as exciting as others but its mine so I guess it will have do. I will try to keep blogging as it is something challenging to me.