Sunday, September 19, 2010
A 26-hour fast and devotion to prayer on Yom Kippur. This was my fresh start on reconnecting with purpose and commitment.
I was tempted to track my food today, but as I wrote in my previous blog post, I'm taking a break. I know what to eat and not to eat.
I met with a physician this morning. She didn't think anything was wrong with me or really believe my explaining to her that sugar and white flour made me tired and crazy and hungier and all sorts of things. That's okay. I didn't expect her to, but I still honestly was slightly disappointed.
Through speaking with her, I was reminded that my downfall is dinner. I think that if I plan out dinner in advance (yes it takes time and is annoying and food planning is something that I find emotionally draining!) that I will have better sucess.
I am very much looking forward to a week-long vacation beginning on Wednesday evening! Gd, please give me the strength to be in control of my eating when I am on vacation and on a different schedule and eating more festive meals than usual (holiday of Sukkot).
I am spending my time online for getting control of my eating in OA online meetings and face-to-face meetings, and I just got an online sponsor. That leaves less time for tracking anyways.
I am very grateful for these tools.
I am on Day 3 free from compulsively eating too much. This is the longest streak in a while. I am very hungry right now but am waiting a little bit longer until after 12.
I hope to gather the strength to set aside time to create a realistic exercise and meal plan for the upcoming week or two.