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The funk I'm in...

Friday, September 17, 2010

I hate it when I feel like this & am happy that it only happens rarely.

I live in a retirement town. By that I mean, people in their golden years come here to live out their lives & die.

My cousin passed away 2 Friday's ago.

I went to a funeral viewing last Wednesday evening & saw the body of a robust man, just a year ago, all shriveled up & looking terrible.

This town has nothing to do in it except sit around & watch the cactus grow.

I'm from California & there are 40 activities to take part in within a 5 block area.

It's not like I haven't tried to get involved w/ stuff around here. I joined a C&W band, that lasted 6 months, then the band had no more bookings.

We joined a 'line dancing' class, took a Spanish class, went back to college & joined a gym.

I get up in the AM(3:30) & hit the gym most mornings. I go to work & I go home. I get up the next day & start all over again. This has been going on for a year.

Even though there are invitations to fellow workers, friends from the gym & old friends that are maybe traveling within 200 miles of where I live... I have had 2 people in 5 years stop by my home & have a beer.

No one has asked me over for to watch a ball game & I don't go to bars anymore so I have to look at myself & wonder, 'What in the cornbread country F**k is wrong w/ me???'

I'm sure this will pass & is only a temporary thing. It is just depressing to think that all I have to look forward to is rotting away in this town & dying.

Yep, I'm a little depressed, sorry.

Ralph the Draftsman
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  • CHERYLL1949
    I know how u feel. I moved here (Sierra Vista,Az) 3 yrs ago. I'm from Dallas and there was something always to do their and my family is their. I met a man online and we knew each other 2 wks and got married. I wanted a new life. Well be careful what you wish for. Anyways if you have the means MOVE! Life is too short!! emoticon
    2121 days ago
    Understand!! We do have family around but it's been a long time since friends have invited us out to do anything. Maybe in these days of TV on demand, internet on and computer chatting, texting, and electronic gaming people have drawn away from real personal contacts. No one writes letters mailed with a stamp any more.

    Does anyone play cards any more? The only cards I play are on the computer playing solitare.

    2835 days ago
  • CHRISSYG2151
    ralph, you're dealing with lots of loss right now, and I'm sorry to hear of these people who are no longer with us. Maybe you can start a regular poker night at your house, or if you're into football join a fantasy league? I know they're not "active" activities, but they're social.

    And I'm learning myself here (I'm a newbie) that this is a great place for support. So hang in there and things will get better!
    2835 days ago
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