I have specificially not told people about the meds before because I’ve been worried about a reaction. But this site is quite different. And really, if I’m going to progress, I need to be honest with myself.

I’ve been extremely consistent with exercise over the last week (thank you Motivation to Move!) and am very pleased. After tabulating my calories for yesterday, I was quite shocked. I ate just over 2000 calories. My “prescribed goal” of calories is 1350 - 1750 given my activity level. I had to remind myself that the REASON I went to the gym was so that I could go over on my calories. But really, I was dismayed that I *treated* myself to just over 600 calories of rice. Rice is not THAT important. 600 calories!??? Ouch. Anyway, except for the chocolate soy ice cream, it was all quite healthy food. I need to keep reminding myself of that! And I RARELY go over calories, so it’s okay. It’s hard to get that through my head though.

Well, I’m still in bed, deciding what I want to do today. I’ve spent an hour or so on the internet replying, posting, and reading. What I’d really like to get motivated to do is go to a rec centre and go swimming. Well, I don’t actually swim. I mainly sit in the hot tub and sauna. I read the book “Ultra Metabolism” a few months ago, and it really helped me out of a plateau. While it seems as though I’m always trying to get out of a plateau, I have lost weight consistently since April. Already this year I have lost about 3.5 pounds. I’m getting off topic now. Sauna. Apparently you can sweat out toxins, and that’s good for you. Apparently your metabolism and your body works best at burning fat when it’s not trying to keep you healthy in other areas. I’m not interested in doing a real cleanse of any sort, because I’m not big on playing around with my calories. The liquid cleanse for a day or two that Scott mentioned sounded rather interesting though. I might give that a try on my next plateau. But at the moment, I’m doing really really well.

One of my life issues is that I get very very bored. At work, I can’t sit still. I literally do WORK for 8 hours a day. One of my favorite things to do is to be so “overwhelmed” with work, that I take a five minute lunch, and get right back to working. Some people sit in the lunch room, and basically stare at each other for a whole hour. I can’t do that. Why waste an entire hour? I heard a quote recently that went something like this: “Work very hard at your job for 8 hours a day, so that one day you can be the manager and work 12 hours a day.” I found that inspiring to put my work away at the end of the day. My goal is to do a good job at whatever I’m doing. This carries over in other areas of my life. I read until the exact moment that I’m falling asleep and can’t even reach up to turn off the lamp. When I walk - even to the bus - I put on either music or a podcast. This includes the treadmill. Some people workout without headphones. How do they do this? When I “relax”, it must be to some form of spoken meditation. If I really have nothing to do, I’ll play a computer game. And this brings me to the thought of: Why can’t I be alone with myself? What am I worried that I will think about, if I let a stray thought in? A long time ago, I read something about how people always have to have background noise. The TV needs to be on in the other room during dinner for some people. The radio has to be on in the car. Being around someone must always be filled with conversation. I remember this, but I don’t remember the solution or the explanation.

Last night, my boyfriend and I put the MTM episode 75 on our respective music players, and walked home from a friend’s house. It was a half hour walk, so the timing was perfect. It was nice to know that as I was hearing something funny that was being said, so was he. We did pause it from time to time so I could explain something to him (ie, “this is the guy I was telling you about whose friend said it was unlikely that he’d get in shape for the trip they are planning!") but in general it was quiet. Except, of course, for the podcast. I haven’t listened to the afterburner yet, and really want to. But I’m still in bed, and my headphones are on the kitchen counter. How lazy am I!???

Anyway, I’m glad to get this out. I used to be an avid journalist… I have daily diaries going back to grade one or so… (Which were really silly, I might add.) When my mom died, I didn’t want to remember too much, so have kept it down to an update every few weeks or so. This much consistency makes me feel fuzzy.

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    Hey Mer! I just wanted to pop by and check in on you. Sounds like you're off to a pretty great start in 2007! I hope it continues to be fab for you. 50 pounds in 2006, eh? That's just jaw-dropping. I'm glad you're proud of yourself! You deserve all the body confidence in the world. I might have to look up that book you mentioned; I've been totally stuck in a plateau since October. On the bright side though, I've been rocking the cardio and strength training, so I'm feeling pretty good. What's "Motivation to Move"? Looking forward to keeping better track of you - I'm subscribing to your blog right now so you'd better keep writing in it! Keep up the great work babe and I'll talk to you again soon. ~Monica
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