Birthday Promise to God and Myself.
Sunday, September 12, 2010
(singing) Happy Birthday to me....Happy Birthday to me....
and why don't I feel as happy as I should be.
Today is my birthday ever since my 12th birthday I always felt a little sad when my birthday came around. I don't know why. Now I am trying to push those feeling aside and trying to feel better when it comes around. I don't feel sad because I'm getting older because I feel good at my age. I'm taking better care of myself by exercising and eating better. Now my birthday falls after 9/11....man!! Can I get some happiness around the day I was born. I try my best not to focus on that day but I can't even watch tv without hearing about it. I have great sympathy for what happen because I was there when the entire thing was taking place. So that day has been etched in my mind forever.
I have not worked out for the past month due to fasting and I haven't been sparking because I am blocked from sparkpeople on my work computer. boy did that set me back from my communication with the thing that keeps me motivated. So I am back but trying to get back to sparking now on the weekends and I plan to work harder that I ever did before because by my next birthday (god willing) I want to be under my goal weight and looking and feeling stronger than ever. I refuse to back down and let anything stand in my way. So I am making a promise to myself and thanking god for letting me see my 43rd birthday and for blessing me with another day to be able o wake up to see my daughter beautiful smile telling me happy birthday this morning. I will make better choices starting today and give it all I got. I tend to also work at helping and motivating others to stay strong because that is what also keeps me going.
I have been completing fast once a year for over 20 years now and this time fasting has taught me alot. I understand more now that we don't live to eat we eat to live. I figured out that food is not all it's cracked up to be. I will now eat when my body tells me to not because I wan't to, not because I'm bored, not because the clock tells me so and not because everyone else is eating. After fasting all day and when I finally did get to eat I appreciated it more but I didn't have to eat more.
My hubby is taking me to a movie and dinner tonight at my favorite Mexican restaurant "El Bandidos" umm umm. So I'm going to start feeling better and try to enjoy this day.
I hope everyone had a great weekend and will have a great week ahead.