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Birthday Promise to God and Myself.

Sunday, September 12, 2010

(singing) Happy Birthday to me....Happy Birthday to me....
and why don't I feel as happy as I should be.

Today is my birthday ever since my 12th birthday I always felt a little sad when my birthday came around. I don't know why. Now I am trying to push those feeling aside and trying to feel better when it comes around. I don't feel sad because I'm getting older because I feel good at my age. I'm taking better care of myself by exercising and eating better. Now my birthday falls after 9/!! Can I get some happiness around the day I was born. I try my best not to focus on that day but I can't even watch tv without hearing about it. I have great sympathy for what happen because I was there when the entire thing was taking place. So that day has been etched in my mind forever.

I have not worked out for the past month due to fasting and I haven't been sparking because I am blocked from sparkpeople on my work computer. boy did that set me back from my communication with the thing that keeps me motivated. So I am back but trying to get back to sparking now on the weekends and I plan to work harder that I ever did before because by my next birthday (god willing) I want to be under my goal weight and looking and feeling stronger than ever. I refuse to back down and let anything stand in my way. So I am making a promise to myself and thanking god for letting me see my 43rd birthday and for blessing me with another day to be able o wake up to see my daughter beautiful smile telling me happy birthday this morning. I will make better choices starting today and give it all I got. I tend to also work at helping and motivating others to stay strong because that is what also keeps me going.

I have been completing fast once a year for over 20 years now and this time fasting has taught me alot. I understand more now that we don't live to eat we eat to live. I figured out that food is not all it's cracked up to be. I will now eat when my body tells me to not because I wan't to, not because I'm bored, not because the clock tells me so and not because everyone else is eating. After fasting all day and when I finally did get to eat I appreciated it more but I didn't have to eat more.

My hubby is taking me to a movie and dinner tonight at my favorite Mexican restaurant "El Bandidos" umm umm. So I'm going to start feeling better and try to enjoy this day.

I hope everyone had a great weekend and will have a great week ahead. emoticon emoticon
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    All of the best for the coming year!
    3175 days ago
    Happy Birthday, you've done a great job this past year. Have you tried the phone application for SP? You don't get all of the features, but you can keep up with some of your goals. Depending on your phone, you may be able to more. Check it out and let me know what happens.

    Happy Birthday again and have a wonderful week. You are a wonderful YOUNG lady and you are so worth it. Take care or U.
    3176 days ago
    Happy Birthday emoticon here is some fruit emoticon instead of candy .

    Happy Birthday

    3176 days ago
    Girl, I am sending you lollipop wishes & champagne dreams on your birthday! I love to celebrate other people birthday but feel like I set the bar too high to really enjoy my birthday. lol I am working on it. I used to love it just being my birthday but now its a little tougher. I too vowed to make each day brighter & better. Happy Birthday to you!!!

    God bless & enjoy your day!

    3176 days ago
    Great job with sticking to your goals!
    My BIL's birthday is today too and I was thinking the same thing. What a sad time, but your celebrating life and that is something to make you smile!
    My oldest son was born the day of the Columbine shootings, I remember crying and thinking "how can my child be born on such a terrible day".
    Every year I remember those who died, but its also imprtant to celebrate life.

    Enjoy your birthday!

    3176 days ago
    The last few years I have been dreading my birthday too and like you 9/11 happened around my birthday- the day after my birthday- so I always get it probably worse than you "oooh its the day before 9/11" and I always have to remind them I was here 21 years before that tragedy. A birthday is truly a blessing and when we stop having them is when we are going to have problems LOL. Enjoy your dinner tonite and try not to overdo yourself....We went to Olive Garden for mines and got the endless pasta bowl and lemme tell you theres no way its endless because you get full after the first serving LOL....I was cheated!!!!
    3176 days ago
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