I Am a Semi-Dork with this Guy... with a 2 lb. add
Friday, September 10, 2010
Yep I gained two pounds... a belated birthday with some ice cream, which always does it. So all the badness has been reigned in and I am back on track to lose that. I am setting a new goal. I want to see how close I can get to 20 pounds by New Years. I would actually like to lose 30, but I don't want to kill myself. ;)
And why the dork comment you ask? Because I saw 3G last weekend. I went back up to LA (3G lives in the Hollywood area to be precise) and we had a low key date. He was starting a new gig, reshoots for some feature. blah blah blah (I like that he has a job that he is interested in. I have definitely dated the jobless or the hated employed.) Anyhow this shoot was supposed to be 5 days long. During shoots, I don't talk to him alot. Frankly it just isn't that possible. Days are long, he is up by 6 and gets back between 9 and midnight. So it will be a few days in between, when usually we talk more often. Oh sometimes there is the occasional text, but that's all. No big since I like the laid back approach to our dating. It's nice and fluid. So much less intense than the other ones, so it is an adjustment though. That whole intense passionate, albeit brief, affair is what I have become accustomed to. So there are moments when I can't read 3G because there is no overt signs. Basically it is just that he is probably more of a stable guy, an actual grown up. haha Twisted, isn't it?
So you know that look a guy gives you and you can just tell that he is into you? Sometimes you just see it? Well, I've seen it (or so I think) but then sometimes he will look at me and it's like I am just present or there. So then I get all confused... or maybe it is all in my head. A conversation was started between me and the handsome tall one about this coming weekend. I thought nothing of asking him to come down to see me, thinking we could do something in my direction. After all he had been up for it two weeks ago. His response was less than desirable and something along the lines of "if you want me to come out there babe, its gonna be the weekend after next." Now in my head, I kind of thought, wow, lazy jerk. Yeah I thought that. I felt like I was delivering myself for your convenience. But I said something like, no it doesn't have to be immediate, just come out my way and spend time there for a change. You know I don't mind coming to LA (which I really don't, especially his area which is a block of Melrose). Now you are probably thinking what the heck? Well, this is the point where I am glad my verbal filter kicked in because I realized 3 days later why he couldn't come.This past Monday was a holiday. They couldn't shoot, only plan. He had a 5 day shoot with late nights in it. That meant he had to work through Saturday and would not be up to the long couple of hour minimum drive each way to me, which I can totally understand after the long hours he put in. Duh, me. He wasn't being a jerk. He still wanted to see me, even if all he really wants to do is sleep on Sunday. Thank goodness my brain stopped my mouth before I became THAT girl.
We play games with all men in some ways don't we? Granted he is hard to read, and I do wonder occasionally if he means what he says (every girl likes to be called smart, sexy and pretty don't they, even if they don't believe it themselves?) but I give him outs and he still shows up or contacts me. Then again, after the summer I had, can you blame me for questioning how fast anyone will take off? I am just kind of waiting to see what happens with this one. There was not that same rush of initial feelings as with the other intense ones... but I am increasingly happy to hear from him or see him. Its all very different.
Until next time... with less pounds. ;)