Trying to remain positive

Monday, September 06, 2010

I had been making progress this past summer with my exercise routines despite health issues. I was getting to the point where i was running 4-5 times a week and at least one day a week I ran 60-70 minutes. This all changed on Friday when I tore my achilles tendon. I have given birth, broken bones and have had other painful experience - however NOTHING and I mean NOTHING has been more painful than this - both physically, mentally and emotionally. Now I am in a cast and on crutches for at least 4 weeks but probably closer to 8 weeks and feel so devastated.

My room mate is training for a marathon and although I adore him dearly, I cannot help but be jealous as I watch him run and train when I can barely walk. It's rainy and gray out today which matches my mood.

I have a brother that is in a wheelchair and I have always been so proud of the way he handles himself and his zest for life and positive outlook on life since his accident. I feel like such a brat for feeling so down and negative right now. I know it will heal but I feel as if all my hard work is going down the drain.

Just thought I would would write and share my feelings instead of spending another day sobbing.

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    i'm so sorry i didn't see this earlier. i thought i was subscribed to your blog. i'm so sorry about your injury. i know you are strong and when you are healed you will be stronger too.

    3101 days ago
    thanks Cindy and Kate. I'm trying really hard to be positive, but you both are aware of my health issues and I swear that running has been the one thing that has kept me mentally positive. Now without it, I just feel lost and the days when I'm on bed rest it will be hard to find something to keep me going.
    3122 days ago
    Hey hon,

    I know that this is rough. But you are WILL heal. I know it is the last thing you want to hear ...but you need to give your body the time it needs to get healthy and strong. I am as impatient as I get it. Especially when you are as active as you are. This will heal in time and soon you will be back at it!
    3122 days ago
    Awww, cheer up, you need to be taking care of yourself right now! It's the only way you'll be able to get back to running again. I'm in a miserable place myself, but I keep trying to think positive :-/
    3122 days ago
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