Trying to remain positive
Monday, September 06, 2010
I had been making progress this past summer with my exercise routines despite health issues. I was getting to the point where i was running 4-5 times a week and at least one day a week I ran 60-70 minutes. This all changed on Friday when I tore my achilles tendon. I have given birth, broken bones and have had other painful experience - however NOTHING and I mean NOTHING has been more painful than this - both physically, mentally and emotionally. Now I am in a cast and on crutches for at least 4 weeks but probably closer to 8 weeks and feel so devastated.
My room mate is training for a marathon and although I adore him dearly, I cannot help but be jealous as I watch him run and train when I can barely walk. It's rainy and gray out today which matches my mood.
I have a brother that is in a wheelchair and I have always been so proud of the way he handles himself and his zest for life and positive outlook on life since his accident. I feel like such a brat for feeling so down and negative right now. I know it will heal but I feel as if all my hard work is going down the drain.
Just thought I would would write and share my feelings instead of spending another day sobbing.
Happy Labor day Spark Peeps - I hope you are having a better day than I am