CHIRORENGO

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Trying to remain positive

Monday, September 06, 2010

I had been making progress this past summer with my exercise routines despite health issues. I was getting to the point where i was running 4-5 times a week and at least one day a week I ran 60-70 minutes. This all changed on Friday when I tore my achilles tendon. I have given birth, broken bones and have had other painful experience - however NOTHING and I mean NOTHING has been more painful than this - both physically, mentally and emotionally. Now I am in a cast and on crutches for at least 4 weeks but probably closer to 8 weeks and feel so devastated.

My room mate is training for a marathon and although I adore him dearly, I cannot help but be jealous as I watch him run and train when I can barely walk. It's rainy and gray out today which matches my mood.

I have a brother that is in a wheelchair and I have always been so proud of the way he handles himself and his zest for life and positive outlook on life since his accident. I feel like such a brat for feeling so down and negative right now. I know it will heal but I feel as if all my hard work is going down the drain.

Just thought I would would write and share my feelings instead of spending another day sobbing.

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  • MANDA_MICHELLE
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    i'm so sorry i didn't see this earlier. i thought i was subscribed to your blog. i'm so sorry about your injury. i know you are strong and when you are healed you will be stronger too.


    2945 days ago
  • CHIRORENGO
    thanks Cindy and Kate. I'm trying really hard to be positive, but you both are aware of my health issues and I swear that running has been the one thing that has kept me mentally positive. Now without it, I just feel lost and the days when I'm on bed rest it will be hard to find something to keep me going.
    2965 days ago
  • MARINEMAMA
    Hey hon,

    I know that this is rough. But you are right...it WILL heal. I know it is the last thing you want to hear ...but you need to give your body the time it needs to get healthy and strong. I am as impatient as most...so I get it. Especially when you are as active as you are. This will heal in time and soon you will be back at it!
    2965 days ago
  • MEGAMITENCHI
    Awww, cheer up, you need to be taking care of yourself right now! It's the only way you'll be able to get back to running again. I'm in a miserable place myself, but I keep trying to think positive :-/
    2965 days ago
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