2:45 a.m. / 09-05-10

Sunday, September 05, 2010

I am missing my beauty rest ! It is the 'wee' hours of Sunday morning. I want to be sleeping, however, pain in my back has other ideas. Last May, I injured myself trying to help move a sofa ( the kind with a recliner built in on each side ). I know, I know, what was I thinking ? Well, I'll tell you. I have been making pottery for about 12 years, I regularly lift boxes of clay, move equipment etc. I carried children around for years, often when they could have walked. I retired from the police department after 15 years of carrying 'gear'. Add that to the fact that my son needed help moving the sofa and with my giant ego, of course I thought I could still do it.

It's hard to admit that I can no longer do the things of old.... play tennis, softball, footrace, ( and win), NOR can I eat like I am regularly doing those things ! I am older and supposed to be wiser. I do not burn off calories like I used to either. Now I am pretty much sedentary. Oh, I still have my hobbies, but I sit down when I get winded, I rest after a couple of hours. In some cases, because of an irksome pulmonary illness, I sleep all day !

So it is with what I eat. My body no longer needs as many calories in order to run efficiently. Truth be told, my body will run much more effectively when I have lost about 30 pounds. I will be able to walk further and faster. I will breathe easier and feel better. That's a pretty sizable reward for eating in a more healthy manner.

My back will heal. That too will take more time than it used to. Like me it will need care and patience. I am the only person who can choose how this life will play out. My choices on food, rest, contentment, pleasure, etc are clear. I can take the high road or the low road. It is mine to choose moment by moment. No one can do it for me. That said, I think I'll do some yoga stretches and go hug my pillow again !

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  • BONNIE627
    hope your back is better.. it is the pits when you want to sleep and can't..sure hope today is better for you.. emoticon
    3937 days ago
  • DENI_ZEN have my sympathy! Back pain grabs one's attention like no other pain can, unfortunately, and I would imagine your pulmonary condition, too, limits the types of exercise you're able to do. My set of conditions may be different, but they, too, are somewhat limiting. Physical therapy exercises and a little walking are "it" for me :) Lots of rest is good for both of us, too, and there's evidence to show sleep is even essential for weight loss! I remember that when I conk out for my afternoon nap :) It's a little over 30 lbs. now that I've lost, and I'm breathing and moving so much better...and in far less pain, so it's entirely possible you're going to reap those rewards, too - especially since you're doing yoga! Hats off!!! - Sandi emoticon
    3938 days ago
    oh how i know your pain,i regularly wake up at that time of the morning due to my knees hurting and my feet burning/ tingling. and then its a big fight with my body and mind to get back to sleep. at the end i usually do what you did, get on the computer. painkillers and lotion added to my burning feet help some but usually i am up for the day then....until the kids are gone and then i dont feel guilty about laying back down for a while...... emoticon
    3938 days ago
    I feel your pain! Well, not your back pain, but the pain of not being able to do like I used to!...and you are right about having an easier time if you shed some weight. I have lost 20, 10 more to go and I feel like a different person - it's incredible how much more energy I have.

    I am sorry your back is giving you fits - I hope you are pain-free soon.

    I also wanted to tell you that your pottery and watercolors are absolutely stunning!

    3938 days ago
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