2:45 a.m. / 09-05-10
Sunday, September 05, 2010
I am missing my beauty rest ! It is the 'wee' hours of Sunday morning. I want to be sleeping, however, pain in my back has other ideas. Last May, I injured myself trying to help move a sofa ( the kind with a recliner built in on each side ). I know, I know, what was I thinking ? Well, I'll tell you. I have been making pottery for about 12 years, I regularly lift boxes of clay, move equipment etc. I carried children around for years, often when they could have walked. I retired from the police department after 15 years of carrying 'gear'. Add that to the fact that my son needed help moving the sofa and with my giant ego, of course I thought I could still do it.
It's hard to admit that I can no longer do the things of old.... play tennis, softball, footrace, ( and win), NOR can I eat like I am regularly doing those things ! I am older and supposed to be wiser. I do not burn off calories like I used to either. Now I am pretty much sedentary. Oh, I still have my hobbies, but I sit down when I get winded, I rest after a couple of hours. In some cases, because of an irksome pulmonary illness, I sleep all day !
So it is with what I eat. My body no longer needs as many calories in order to run efficiently. Truth be told, my body will run much more effectively when I have lost about 30 pounds. I will be able to walk further and faster. I will breathe easier and feel better. That's a pretty sizable reward for eating in a more healthy manner.
My back will heal. That too will take more time than it used to. Like me it will need care and patience. I am the only person who can choose how this life will play out. My choices on food, rest, contentment, pleasure, etc are clear. I can take the high road or the low road. It is mine to choose moment by moment. No one can do it for me. That said, I think I'll do some yoga stretches and go hug my pillow again !