I shouldnt complain...But I'm going to a little...
Friday, September 03, 2010
Well before the complaints I do wanna say I am very proud of myself for now losing 21lbs since the end of July (249. That puts me into the 240's!I cant believe its actually happening. Its so crazy that the self control came out of no where. Ive done so good, I amaze myself in sticky situations. I also find it crazy how in just a little over a month how much my stomach has shrunk. I get full SO easily now. I LOVE IT lol.
What I hate is how I look in the mirror and look like the same girl who started off on this website at 270lbs. Why must so many of us have that "fat girl mentality". Why must we continue to see ourselves as our "big" selves when we are continuing to lose weight. Ive have plenty of people tell me they can see the difference - I just wish I could. I do know watching the numbers on the scale go down makes me feel good. Also, fitting more comfortable into some of my clothes...not feeling like my stomach is bulging out or that my jeans are too tight makes me feel better too. OH! And I moved my the clips on my bra from the very last row..in once to the middle row. That made me feel better.
I started actually working (no more training) this week. Im at dunkin donuts for now because I didnt have a job for just about 4 months. I went to school for medical office administration. At some point id like to find a decently paying job doing that but this will settle for now, anything is better then depending on the state and I hated not being independent. Anyways off subject. Im on my feet everyday now from 6:30 a.m - 10:30 am..I dont get a break because it is only a 4 hour shift. Everytime I come home in such pain. My back, legs, ankles and feet hurt SO much. Today its my lower back the most. I have like SHOOTING pains in my lower back. I hope I start getting used to it because Ive had to come home everyday and take medicine. I hate being at work and being in so much pain the whole time.
Thats it for now! I gutta figure out dinner for Gabby and I.