Popsicle Sticks & Remote Controls

Sunday, August 29, 2010

I must confess something.

I was completely dreading, avoiding, ignoring, and trying desperately to forget about opening my closet to figure out what I am going to wear on my first day back to school tomorrow. Last Spring, I was wearing only baggy linen capris with an elastic waist, because that's all that I could fit into. I had two pairs -- one in black and one in gray. I had baggy linen tops to complete the outfit. Though the clothes really were nice, I still felt like a hippo wearing them. I couldn't fit into any of my cute skirts or colorful summer frocks or tops. I didn't even put shorts on this summer...because, you guessed it. None fit.

Given that tomorrow is D-Day (no kids until after Labor Day), I can put it off no longer. I don't want to start the first day stressed and grumpy and frustrated -- if it's going to happen, I might as well be prepared and give myself at least a small chance to figure out a PLAN B. And, knowing me, it's best NOT to problem solve at the last minute (which always makes things 5 million times worse). I have this vision (nightmare, more like) of me tomorrow morning, standing in front of my closet. I take out a skirt, put it on, and struggle to to zip it. I can't, so I throw it on the floor. Repeat until I'm breaking into a sweat, there are no skirts left in the closet, and a big pile of now wrinkly clothes on the floor. Forget the tops -- if no skirt fits, what's the point of trying on a top? The only one who wouldn't laugh or run away if they saw me naked (even only the top half!) is probably my cat. emoticon

You know where this is going, right? Read on.

Every skirt fits! Not just one, not just two -- EVERY! They're not tight, but there's not a of a lot of room either. Put it this way -- I could slip a popsicle stick (maybe 2) between myself and the skirt, but probably not a remote control. (No, there is no reason whatsoever for me to put a remote down the waist of my skirt, but you get the gist, right?) I didn't try to tuck -- don't have to. For now, untucked is okay. That, I am brave enough to try tomorrow morning. They will fit even better as soon as I get these last 5 or so pounds off. WHo knows, maybe I'll go for 10. (One step at a time, Ali, one step at a time!)

At some point during the last 10 days or so, lots of things started to click -- my nutrition awareness (not just calories, but also how to balance the food groups), my exercise plan (not just cardio, but also strength building exercise), my big effort to nip my negative thinking in the bud and replace it with positive affirmations every morning. (Honestly, that's been the hardest part for me -- AND I'm doing it!)

I feel in control. (If you only knew how hard it is not to add a "but"...)

Time to distract myself...

I am thrilled! I am proud of me! I am so pumped to keep going! Most importantly, I can exhale, rest easier, breathe a sigh of relief, and maybe even have a good dream tonight knowing that when I open my closet tomorrow morning that everything will be okay. (Just watch, I'll get a flat tire on the way to work!)

Thank you, my new SparkFriends, for "getting it" -- makes all the difference in the world! emoticon emoticon

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    This was so much fun to are a great writer! Congratulations on this success and I love your Marie Curie quote. Thanks for bringing a big smile to my face! How's school going?
    3707 days ago
    DITTO ON ALL THE COMMENTS. I could not say them any better. Keep it up!
    3710 days ago
    WOOHOO!!!! Fitting into your clothes is an AWESOME feeling! It's like getting a new wardrobe, with so many new outfit possibilities!! emoticon WAY TO GO!!!
    3725 days ago
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    Yahooooo! Yes, the Best feeling in the world, and you can enjoy it every day you open your closet!

    YOU did it! Congratulations, Ali.


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    3739 days ago
    WooHoo!! What a great feeling that is! I think it really depends on the remote control, though....really! lol We have, like, 5 remote controls and they all vary in sizes and I would BET that at least one of them would slip nicely between you and your skirt!!

    YaY! I am so happy for you and I bet you looked fantastic today in your skirt! I absolutely love your attitude and am just hoping...strongly hoping that your fitness will rub off on me a bit!! I need to get that in there!!

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    3740 days ago
    That has to be the best feeling in the world! Fitting into something that didn't fit at all. Awesome.
    3741 days ago
    I love hearing about days like this! Rock those skirts at school this year! Celebrate and be proud of your accomplishment because all of your Sparkers are very proud and happy for you! emoticon
    3741 days ago
    Awesome!! Keep up the great work!!!
    3741 days ago
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