Resigned to fall
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Where I live, fall is definitely in the air even though the tomatoes aren't ripe yet and I need at least another month of heat if my fantasies of home grown corn were to come true. But, today I was sort of resigned to it. There are lots of things that will still need to be done to get the garden ready for next year and prepare the harvest for freezing and then when the snow comes, a bunch of marshy paths in the woods open up for cross country skiing and off leash dog walking.
I guess the reason the fact that I have accepted the inevitable is exciting to me is that it's a little victory in my quest to live in the moment and appreciate the now. And it's sort of related to Sparkpeople because really, isn't the ultimate goal in all of this - trying to look better, be stronger, feel healthier - to be happy. Lately I have been feeling really bad about myself for gaining weight, not tracking, and eating a lot of crap. But I'm not going to anymore. I have learned a lot on SP, I know how to make healthy food, I love healthy food and fresh fruit and vegetables, and I'm mentally committed to the idea of strength and cardio training. So, when the time is right, I will do it, and if it's taking me a while to get there, beating up on myself isn't going to help.
It feels like I always go through this same cycle of success and hiatus from success but I probably don't see the overall progress I am making every time I learn a new nutrition fact or enter a new recipe, it's all forming a base I can build on.