zombie, zero, zany
Thursday, August 26, 2010
I notice that it has been almost 11 months since my last blog. This saddens me as I love blogging. Yet it reveals how my journey has unfolded. I entered the dungeon of a deep depression where I have fought and am fighting the dragons of depression. This week I rejoice as I have found a secret potion (medication-cocktail) that is helping me deal with depression.
Zombie: During the past months, I have functioned as though I were a ZOMBIE. This is the ‘going through the motions’ stage of living. It isn’t a pleasant place to be. This is the level of simple survival. Food, sleep and staying alive are the goals.
Zero: This is the starting line as I leave the dungeon of depression. I am still depressed; only less severely. Ground Zero for me is the place where I start anew by exercising just 10 minutes for now; charting my food intake; and seriously resuming my journey for health mentally and physically.
Zany: I feel like smiling again. I feel more like my zany-self. I like this part of recovery. I like being an extroverted depressive. I love my zanyness. It was a long stay in the dungeon but I have fought the dragons for now! I love myself, my family and my Sparkpeople family.
I love myself enough to resume the journey to health!