In addition to being a mindless eater...I'm an....anxious eater???

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

I don't over eat when I'm sad, I don't over eat when I'm angry or mad, I don't over eat when I'm tired, I don't over eat when I'm happy,,,

I did find out after joining SP that I over eat when I'm perfectly fine and not paying any attention to how many times my hand goes into the basket of chips, cookies, etc. I fit the definition of mindless eater to a "T"...and have been working on that.

...but I knew there was something else that I just couldn't quite put my finger on...and then the other day - Bingo... there it was - in full force. I was at working on a team project and I was the person who had to receive everything from everyone else and get everything put into the system...and we have an absolute deadline. Every year, I am promised we will start earlier the next year - and it has yet to happen. And this year is the absolute worst of all years - everyone has been waaaaayyyyy behind. The first day someone put a major delay into the system, I realized I reached for an unhealthy snack, and then another, and then another. Same thing the next day, and the day after that, and the day after that. I don't even want to step on the scale b/c I know I will see a weight gain... I have stopped tracking anything after lunch b/c I know I will be a gazillion calories.

For two nights in a row my dinner has been potato chips - and I don't mean single serving bags - I mean the big, family size bag (and I'm the only family in my house!). I come home and hit the couch b/c I'm too tired to get up and walk or exercise. The silver lining is that I have now realized another facet about my emotional eating but I am so frustrated with myself. I have been working so hard - I have to reclaim myself. I have to tell myself that it doesn't matter how anxious I am - food isn't going to take the anxiety away - but maybe a good walk with multiple deep breathes will lessen it... Ugggghhhhh!
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    Sounds like you are in the midst of taking a huge step forward. You see a problem and you have a planned solution for the next time you struggle. I applaud your hard work and your determination to move on!!!
    2857 days ago
    Wow! I'm right there with you, though I'm a mindless/emotional/compulsive/binge overeater (yep, an 'overachiever' even when it comes to overeating!! LOL) You are absolutely right though that food won't do anything for the anxiety you're feeling and after the food is gone, the anxiety is still there. At least you recognize that so that gets you another step closer to dealing with and overcoming this challenge. Pat yourself on the back for that!! Don't beat yourself up for what's done, it's over. You can only move forward and once you find whatever will work for you to get you away from using food as an 'anxiety reliever' (walking, deep breathing, blogging, etc), you are going to be unstoppable!! :0)

    Take care.

    2857 days ago
  • LEXXA26
    Eugh, tell me about it, I'm exactly the same!! As soon as the stress hits, out come the crisps and the cakes. I don't do the same when I'm upset (unless a well-meaning friend does that 'aww, I think you need some ice-cream' thing) but when I'm stressed out and exhausted, healthy options are the last thing on my mind. It does sound like you're having a really horrible time at work, and there's not much you can do other than just power through it. I just try and tell myself to really listen to my body.. my brain is telling me that I can't be bothered to make a salad or anything so just grab something out the cupboard, but my body is actually telling me that it's feeling crappy and needs some goodness in it! However, I also don't think you should add to your stress by beating yourself up about it. It sounds like you have this stressful time at work every year, so you know it'll be over soon - then's the time to get your butt exercising again. Maybe try some yoga exercises? Especially before you tuck into the crisps, you may find that you feel so much more relaxed that you feel more prepared for some healthier food. I find that helps! I hope things get easier for you soon, keep going emoticon
    2857 days ago
    Emotional eating sucks! And I wish I had some magic advice to fix it for you. But I don't. I'm still struggling with it too. It's hard to replace those bad behaviors!

    I hope your week gets better!
    2857 days ago
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