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August 18, 2010

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Hey guys,

I’m having kind of a rough day, a rough few days in fact. I was doing so well. I lost 6 pounds for my $10,000 challenge at my gym but I’m sure I’ve gained over the last couple days because I’ve been eating pretty horribly. I’m in a very negative mind set right now and I don’t know how to change that. I keep wondering why bother trying. I’m not going to win the challenge. Why bother doing anything anymore.

Then I start thinking I’m a horrible person because I’m worrying about myself and my trivial issues when we just recently found out my grandfather has cancer. It’s incurable and he may only have a few months to live. We’re waiting on test results but at most he’s got 3 to 4 years and there’s a 50% chance he’ll die within 6 months.

I’ve known this for a couple weeks, but it’s only now sinking in I think. I need to find a way to not let this ruin my efforts though. I need to find a way other than eating to deal with this. I am definitely an emotional eater. I am thinking about seeing a therapist for a little while but it’s so expensive so I’m looking for alternatives. My current mindset is making every little thing bother me now, and everything seems so difficult. School, work, exercise, eating healthy. I just don’t want to do anything.

Sorry guys, I don’t mean to be complaining or anything.
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    first, I am so sorry to hear about your grandfather's illness. Make sure you find a way to tell him that you love him and that you will miss him. Because after he is gone it will be more important to you if you told him than if he told you.

    Around here we are all pretty much in the same boat or have been. Finding your way is something only you can do. the thing to remember when you lose your motivation is that you CAN get it back. $10,000 dollars is a drop in the bucket in value compared to your health.

    I have faith in you. You are going to figure it all out.

    Again, so very sorry about your grandfather.

    3163 days ago
    I have heard all of those thoughts in my head before - it is a little scary. My grandfather has cancer as well. The only thing that I have been able to do to cope some days is take it one day, even one minute at a time. Your grandfather is still with you, and that is a blessing. You may not win the challenge, but you will feel so much better if you finish it, and one little slip up does not mean that you still can't win. I know that you can make it through this. Any time you need me for prayers or any kind of support, let me know.
    3168 days ago
    First of all, don't let the devil and his negativity win over you! Only speak out postives over yourself! And in regards to your grandfather, what better way to respect HIS life, then to show respect for your own? Wouldn't he LOVE to see you taking care of your temple? Getting out in the world and living your life to the fullest? Don't get caught up in the whirlwind of negativity! Get up, get out, and keep on, keep in on! There are lots of reasons to do it. Most of all because YOU DO deserve to be HEALTHY more than anything!
    I am here if you need me. emoticon
    3168 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/18/2010 10:59:11 AM
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