I feel like cr@p

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

It's hot outside. My AC isn't working, and in this heat, the fan in my bedroom doesn't do crap. I don't have time or energy to fix the AC because my roommate is out and I'm stuck at work doing stuff I hate, because it's boring and slow here in August, so it feels like busy work.
I'm not sleeping well because of the heat and stress. And this leads me to not eat as well, which makes me even sleepier and crankier. I sooo wanted to wake up early today while it was cool in order to workout, but I couldn't, since I didn't fall asleep until close to 1 a.m.
I'm feeling very frustrated.
I haven't weighed myself in a few days, because I'm not going to like what I will see. I feel fat.
I know that I've gotten stronger since beginning Spark People, but I laid out pretty modest, slow and steady weightloss goals, with dates I kept pushing back. I had hoped to have lost at least a few pounds by Rosh Hashanah, which is now in about 3 weeks. I think at this point I'll be lucky if I have netted losing 1.
I can't concentrate at work today. But if I wasn't here, I don't know what I'd want to be doing - okay, fine, besides diving headfirst into an ice cream sundae. I am drinking crazy amounts of water, it's not even worth tracking.
Where did my willpower go? I don't feel like doing anything besides sleep, and when I can sleep, I can't!
One thing is for sure, I'm returning to the OA meeting on Friday.
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  • no profile photo CD6063397
    Have you tryed the book: {The metabolism Miracle} by Diane my story on Sparkpage... emoticon
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    3649 days ago
  • no profile photo KEEWATIN1
    Being tired is the worst for me also. I have two younger children 6 and 3 years. Neither will sleep in their own beds. They come into our beds at various times in the night and we put them back to their own beds....every night is a gong show and none of us get any sleep. Anyways my point is....I get how you feel when you are tired. It is my worst vice. If I am tired I don't want to exercise. If I don't exercise I eat really bad. If I eat really bad then I am is a terrible cycle. After reading some of the posts I am going to get on the bike and do some exercise. I was going to skip it today because I had a bad I am going to do it! I bet I will feel better after.....hang in - try to get out despite the heat and go for a walk! I will too!!!!!
    3649 days ago
    Oh my dear :( I'm sorry you are having a bad day. Have faith, you will find a way out of this slump. Take baby steps, try squeezing in a walk during work. It will make you feel better - promise!

    So sorry about your AC. I HATE being hot. Can you get it fixed soon?
    3649 days ago
  • BETTY925
    Oh - do I know how you feel. But I won't give up on me and you won't give up on you. Unfortunately, we will have those bad days and I tend to focus on them more but I am trying to focus on the positive. I posted on my blog about all the negatives and several people pointed out to me the positive things that I had but that I was overlooking. How cool is that?

    I know you can do this. We all can.

    I put my hand in yours and TOGETHER we can do what we could not do alone!!
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    3649 days ago
    Chin up! Make a list of the POSITIVE things in your life, now that you've gotten out the negative things. The positive list can be the smallest of the biggest things--whatever you have going on that will help cheer you up. Then, make the DECISION to be happy. Eliminate the cr@ppy feeling, put a smile on your face, and keep in mind that list of positive things. Look in a mirror and smile at yourself, letting yourself know that not everything is going poorly. Next, make the DECISION to be dedicated to the health goals. If it's too hot outside to exercise, do stretches and walk in place in a cold shower. Figure out something, anything, to get you feeling better about yourself. Hang in there, we're all here to support you!
    3649 days ago
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