Stop binging you idiot!
Monday, August 16, 2010
I can't stop sometimes.. it's like I get in this zone.. food food n more food.. all the food in the house..need to taste everything.. I can eat all of the groceries for the entire week in an hour.. just nonstop.. Joe has noticed the problem.. he knows I take laxatives and he caught me throwing up before.. but he didn't know how much I can actually eat.. we are on a strict budget right now because I'm joblessickin mess and we have to pay rent.. so we don't buy as much food.. he knows if I eat anything outg o the fridge or cupboard.. and questions why I ate an entire loaf of bread.. or the entire jumbo jar o PB.. or all the ice pops.. or all his sandwich meat.. its sickening.. last night I freaked out after eating tons of crap.. drove to sonic once he was asleep and ate so much crap.. sickening.. I feel disgusting today... I popped a crapload of laxs last night but couldn't purge cause he'd wake up.. I debated throwing up on the side of the road in my car but didn't.. wish I had.. I'm a freakin mess