Happy New Year????
Monday, January 01, 2007
2007-- I really hope it is better than it is starting off to be. I am having a very difficult time not having my boyfriend in my life. He told me the day after Christmas he needed to give me the space I need and deserve. We have talked a little. I am so confused. I don't want this. I am just hurting so bad. He called yesterday to wish me a Happy New Year. He is just so distant. I don't like this...the ball is completely in his court. I feel so desperate. I don't like this. I don't like him leaving me hanging. I don't know if we will be ok or not. I am so frustrated with all of this. Why do I have to feel like this? Why does he have to do this? To me....life can be as good as you want it. It can be so simple. Why can't he just see it? Why can't he see a counselor or get on medicine to deal with his baggage? I just don't understand. I want to be loved. I want to be able to give my love without holding back. I just don't know what to do. I am worth more....aren't I?