Emotional Week

Friday, August 13, 2010

I've been sitting here trying to figure out if I want to blog or not. I love to talk, love to write, but talking to myself gets boring after awhile.

Anyway, husband is still out of work. Not even any phone calls. It's very frustrating. Then of course his unemployment was denied for the first two weeks. Hopefully it's because of the severance, but he's been paid unemployment with severance before.. don't get it.

and I have stress at work. I have a new "boss" and he forgets to tell us (me and my co-worker) to do some work. Well we had a sit down yesterday and found out the stuff he is pressuring us to finish this week is not needed until December... WTH??? Why would you give us an unreasonable deadline? Anyway, he's not well liked in our group... many think he's a poser (and we've ALREADY had one of those) and it's just so frustrating. It makes me tired and not wanting to come to work. My co-worker called in today because he was so frustrated.

I have managed to keep my calories under control. I actually worked out more this week in the gym and started walking my terror, I mean my lab, Teddy. Since he's a year old and NOT leash trained yet, it's been quit amusing. Oh did I say he's VERY strong. I'm a pretty big girl (5'7", 175) but he can pull me around a bit with that 60-70 pounds of weight. We aren't sure how much he weighs. No scales in our house. First day he was horrible, keep jumping and wore himself out. Second and third day much better. Oh yeah, did I forget to mention, it's still 100 degrees when we go out.

I have to say, I'm kind of impressed with myself. With the amount of stress I've been under, I haven't hit the vending machine for my beloved Ding Dongs. I haven't doubled/tripled my soda intake. I haven't lost any weight in the past couple of weeks, but I haven't gained either. I had the couple of days with WAY too much beer but I feel fairly confident I worked that off.

I've had some days when I wonder why I'm doing this. Then I go out to my spark page and look at that February picture with my daughter and compare it to the July picture and I remember. Then I remember also I was planning on having another knee surgery in February because my knee hurt so bad, but now it doesn't even bother me. So there is a reason for this. I don't want to be comfortable at this weight, I really want to drop another 25, but I will do it when my body is ready to do it. I just have to walk the walk and walk the talk..... yeah yeah Cowboy fan, what can I say... I'm from Dallas

But it's been a Monday today... oh it is Friday the 13th. I got toothpaste in my eye (go figure that stuff STINGS). I couldn't find any yogurt to eat. That's my breakfast, what will I do. Couldn't find any more nuts. ARGH. and I get to work, actually talk to people, then go to my desk and look at my feet...... I have two DIFFERENT shoes on. OMYGOSH.. what else can happen. I did at least have my gym bag and it's jeans day so I went out to the truck and switched to my running shoes. Then I slam the door on my badge and get hung up on the door. I'm trying so hard not to cuss, but yeah a few expletives come out of my mouth. I did get my workout in, but I absolutely cannot take a deep breath without exertion. Don't know if it's the heat and the smog or what. About ready to steal my daughter's asthma medication.

Anyway, I think I'm just talking to talk. Everyone have a good weekend. Drink your water and watch your calories. emoticon

I just reread this.. wow I'm so across the board. Oh well love life.
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    hey I enjoyed your blog I thought I actualy commented guess I didn't hope you have a great mondya.
    2837 days ago
    In the midst of all this stress, you have been careful with your food and working out. You have kept your focus and are doing amazing. Way to go! I wish you a better week next week and the week after and the week after and so on and so on. emoticon
    2838 days ago
    emoticon WOW you had a day where I thinkI would ahve sat in a corneer and cried!
    emoticon on not kncokingover the vending machine to eat those Dind Dongs! It is awesome that you are manitaining during this stressful time in your life.
    Hang in there!
    2838 days ago
    I am so sorry things haven't been going your way. It seems that when it rains it pours with problems.
    Great job with sticking to the plan and comparing pictures. You can do this.
    2839 days ago
    You're a better woman than I am! I would have been pounding down the door of the vending machine for any ONE of those crazy incidents. Great job for sticking to your guns and following through with promises you made to yourself. Great perspective as well on the progress you've made! Congratulations and enjoy your weekend!
    2840 days ago
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