Friday, August 13, 2010
Losebuddahbelly wrote about the mayan apocalypse that som expects in 2012 and that it would be an excuse to eat and relax tday beacuse what´s the use if we are going to die soon. My thougts are these:
My personal apocalypse came in 2003 when I was diagnosed with cancer. It turned out not to be the end but my experience was that if the time is short, you better speed up your work towards the person you would want to be.
If the mayan apocalypse should appear I would like to have reached my goals by then. If there is one thing I learned from cancer (many more but this was the most important) it was that the only thing I can be sure of is now. If I don´t embrace and make the best of now - I got nothing. Nobody knows if I die tomorrow or forty years from now (although I am pretty sure that I will die much sooner if I don´t succeed in making life healthier) the one thing I know is that I WILL die - and the important question is how I want to spend the time between this moment and death. Since I only enjoy "bad" things (overeating, sneaking from work, spending moeny I don´t have etc. etc) on a very surface level and feel lousy underneath, I would go for the healthy life and use the mayan apocalyps to remind me that now is all I got!