I'm going to fail my Air Force fitness test

Thursday, August 12, 2010

I am so frustrated right now. I've always been a slow runner. For my Air Force fitness test, I would run 1.5 miles in about 17:30. Yes, I realize this is ridiculously slow, but no matter what I did, I was never able to get faster. This was fine because I could do well enough on the other components of the fitness test that I still passed.

Now with the new standards, the minimum run time I must meet is 16:22. I fail to see how I will ever get there. It has been nearly six months since I had my baby, so I'm due to test in a couple of weeks. I've lost all the baby weight and have been working out religiously since 12 weeks post partum. I should have started about 8 weeks post partum, but I doubt even that would have made enough of a difference. When I've tested myself, I've run my 1.5 mile between 17:40-18:00, so I'm almost at the same level of fitness I had pre-baby. I can probably shave a little bit more off of my time for my actual test, but there's no way I will be able to run in 16:22.

My problem is that my heartrate reaches 200+ while I'm running. I physically cannot work any harder. I'm giving it my absolute all with every single run, but that still isn't fast enough. I saw a doctor about a month ago, and she referred me to a cardiologist. I had to wait forever to get an appointment, so I'm not going to be seen until next week. I'm convinced that there's nothing truly wrong with me and that I will probably just be told I'm out of shape. At least then I will know that I'm not going to drop dead during the middle of a run.

I've been trying so hard, but my best is not good enough. I'm so stressed out over this that I'm having trouble sleeping at night.

I don't know what the point of this post was other than to have a pity party for myself. Thanks for listening.
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    I am really sorry and wish I could offer some words of wisdom that would help shave that extra minute off. It is never a good feeling when your best isn't good enough but I do hope you will at least give yourself some credit for doing the best you can and not giving up. Hang in there and just keep doing the best you can. And congrats on the new baby! emoticon

    Best wishes Suzanne
    2812 days ago
    2812 days ago
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