5 more miles
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Bit by itsy bit, I am inching my way towards Arizona. Figure in a year I'll get there! Hopefully will make it before then!
Last week was a bout with the flu or something like it, my attendance at the gym was less than stellar. This week my goal is to get there 4 times. One day down, three more to go. Taking it one day at a time.
Had a bit of stress today, and what did I do? Went straight to the store, bought a Snickers bar, and ate it on the way home. Can we say, Stress Binge-ing? It's a pattern with me that I need to address - what purpose does this serve, other than calm my jangled nerves? After that initial "feel-good" response, what did I feel? Disgust that I let my feelings "win" once again. Unhappiness because I just biked 5 miles and then ate a flippin' Snickers bar! The realization that yes, I do "feed" my emotions, and not in a good way, either.
My plan is this - the next time I get stressed, stop myself before heading straight to the store or the fridge or the cupboards. Evaluate what it is that's really happening. Am I truly hungry? Do I need that piece of chocolate? Or chips? or ice cream? What are my true feelings at the time? Hunger? Disappointment? Anger? Happiness? And what can I find to do other than eat? Get a big glass of water, read a book, exercise, clean the house....whatever!!
It was an eye-opener to me, when I realized exactly what I had done today. I think I learned a valuable lesson, one which has been preached over to me again, and again. What made it different this time, i don't know. I'm grateful for that "light-bulb" moment. Now I need to pay attention to it.