APPLESKI25

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Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Well, I stayed within my calorie range yesterday, but then I woke up very early in the morning and felt hungry. And I wouldn't just be satisfied with the healthy, protein-rich snack that I prepared.
Knowing that it would do me in, I opened up some chocolate ice cream. Then chocolate chips.
I'm going to call someone I know who is in OA. I was given her number once at a meeting. She doesn't know that I know she's in it, but I saw her weighing her food publicly a few times so I'm pretty sure she's open about her problem. Anyways, I hope she'll be willing to help, because clearly I am unable to help myself.
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  • ANGIERUNNER
    emoticon That's great that are willing to go out and get help!
    3652 days ago
  • DINIE123
    Hi there:
    We have all been there, some of us are still there, but you are not alone al all. You re just honest. I am glad you told your boyfriend, he can be there to support you. Besides carrying secrets around is so harmful. You are a person deserving of the best and most people are helpful when they know a problem exists. We an't expect them to know we have a roblem unlesss we are honest with them, and we all need help. It is silly to have so many resources available to us and just ignore them, our friends want to be allowed to help us. Good luck. I fully get the ice cream and chocolate chips, so dangerous, I just can't have them around. My husband loves ice cream every night, so I do allow myself 1/4 cup and then I don't feel left out or deprieved. But I have to keep it to 1/4 cup. That shows I respect myself like I want others to.
    Have a good one, Diane emoticon
    3653 days ago
  • APPLESKI25
    Thanks for your support, all. It was SO FREAKING HARD to pick up the phone. And on the other hand, not hard. In fact, liberating. Because I knew I needed to do it.
    3653 days ago
  • SILVERFIGHTER
    More power to you. OA has been a really great community for me at times in the past, very welcoming, kind, and helpful.

    mel
    3653 days ago
  • KISSIMS19
    GOOD FOR YOU for asking for support ANNNNDDDD for talking with your boyfriend. Remember - the journey is about more then losing weight. It's about learning yourself, overcoming addiction and uncovering your will power and support from others that you need to stay on track... it's more complicated then counting calories! It won't be easy but you are doing great!
    3653 days ago
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    go for it-- emoticon
    3653 days ago
  • TWINTS
    I'm proud of you Appleski! You admitted something big here and I'm glad you are finding support. OA really will help you to see compulsive overeating as a disease and an addiction. You are a good person and you are worth finding a way to live peacefully!
    3653 days ago
  • LIZZYP609
    Reaching out for help is the smartest thing you can do. That could take more courage than anything else!
    So glad to hear of BFs support! Good luck!!
    3653 days ago
  • FITKAT2010
    I hear your pain SparkFriend. Been there done that so many times I felt like I was in a revolving door. I had to come to terms with the understanding I can't trust myself. I got rid of all refined carbs, all processed food stuffs, all chocolate, all goodies, etc. in my house. It helped. I'd start there.

    It might feel demeaning not to trust yourself. It's honest though.

    And, you do have what it takes!
    3653 days ago
  • APPLESKI25
    I should mention that I did bring up my disordered eating history with my boyfriend last night. He doesn't really understand (how can I expect him to?) but he assured me his support, which is all I can ask for and am very grateful for.
    3653 days ago
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