Do you ever stop and think - - how did I get to HERE?

Tuesday, August 03, 2010

Lately, during this journey of self discovery I find myself asking, "How did I get to this point in my life?" I must say that for the most part I am pleased at the direction my health discovery is taking me. I have adopted some different attitudes this go round. I track, track, track calories, expenditures and expect no surprises on weigh in day. If it's been a bad week - I see it coming and plan a path of correction. I have made the conscious decision to not go it alone. I hold myself accountable to my Spark Buddy's and try to touch base with them, give them support, and ASK for support when I need it. I have made the conscience decision to "blog" and get issues out where I can see them in the light of day.

But I find myself fighting a personal issue these days with not being happy with my "space" in this world. I worked VERY hard to acquire the position I had until 2 months ago - when my position was eliminated and I was sent packing into a new job, two pay grades down, with minimal responsibility and minimal travel. Quite a change for me. I have struggled with the fact that I was a manager for the last 25 years of my life - and now I am not. I have also struggled with "what" I am doing and find myself wishing to lapse into another career altogether!

So I am on a journey of self discovery- wondering "what" I want to do next. Job hunting is daunting at best, in an environment not friendly to job hunters. I do not want to sabotage my weight and health journey with the coming "depression" of decisions that will need to be made. So for today, for this moment I will concentrate on "finding" where I want to be and controlling the one part of the me I can continue to build. My health.

Onward and upward.
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  • JUSTA123
    Sometimes we have t accept what is happening around us, you have realized the one hing at this time you can control is your personal self. That is a good start. We are here, for the ups and the downs and we as a Sparks family will succeed. emoticon
    3773 days ago
    I love your attitude. I know I gained the most when my job was my life. Sometimes it is best to just take a step back.
    3775 days ago
    You are going through a tough time. Hang with it and you will emerge stronger than before.
    3775 days ago
    great attitude! I love this quote and thought you might like it, its religious, but even if you are not religious you can take out the "God" part.
    "God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.”

    3775 days ago
    You have a really good attitude. All you can do is take one step at a time. The most important step is to decide what you want to do. Make sure through it all you take care of you!
    3775 days ago
    Great attitude towards the changes that have taken place. If you look at everything you loved about your managerial position, you might get some ideas about "what to do next." Change is difficult, but it is also an opportunity to grow to greater heights.

    3775 days ago
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