July Recap-August Goals - Week 15

Sunday, August 01, 2010

First up, full-on frustration...

Weigh-In Day

Highest Weight: 466.6
SP Starting Weight: 416.2
Last Week: 368.0
Goal This Week: 366.0
Actual: 369.2
Weight Loss This Week: Gain of 1.2 pounds!
Total Weight Loss with SP: 47
Total Overall Weight Loss: 97.4

No. I refuse to move my ticker. I refuse to believe that this is anything more than my body adjusting. Yes, I was a little lax this week with my eating, but I stayed true on my workouts and pushed myself til I hurt. I had to take my rest day yesterday instead of today because my legs and arms and abs were SO sore...and I wake up today and they still don't feel 100%.

This week is here to challenge me. It's here to see how bad I really want it. This is me asking me to prove myself. That 366 was in sight and I will just have to fight that much harder to get it. I have to remember that I lost 6 pounds last week! I have to remember that gaining has not been a regular thing. I have to give myself the authority to forgive myself and move on from here. Because I realized yesterday that I'm really tired. I turned to Hubs and said,"I wish I could just be DONE already. I'm exhausted!" It really is exhausting thinking about what to eat, drink, and what activity or exercise to do every single day. It's exhausting to keep myself so focused. But I'm in it for the long haul, so I'm ready to push through physical and mental exhaustion.

July Recap - August Plan

Weight beginning of July: 379.3
Weight goal for beginning of August: 371.3 (-8)
Actual Weight beginning of this month: 369.2
Actual Weight lost in July: -10.1

So even though this week was a bust, I still lost 10 pounds this month, and that's nothing to scoff at! As for next month? I WILL get that 366 and move past it. I'm already signed up for a 5k walk this weekend, which I'm hoping will push me to really concentrate on the things that I know work for me. Slow and steady wins the race, right? My strength, stamina, and speed have all improved this month, and I can't be angry at myself for anything else. I have to learn to rejoice in what I have done and move on from here, making better choices for myself and continuing my success.

Inches lost in July -

.75 in the calf
1.25 in the waist
.5 in the hips

My body feels much different today than it did on June 30th. I'll post pics later so we can compare, but I think the shape of my body is changing ever so slightly. People are certainly noticing much more.

So the plan for August? Keep at it. Work the nutrition goals you set for yourself in the beginning and get back on track with eating more fresh fruits and vegetables. Play time is over...time to work! (Though I can have fun doing it and then it feels a lot like play time.)

8/8 - 367
8/15 - 365
8/22 - 363
8/29 - 361

I'm so ready to see those 350s!

I, Esther, vow that today I am recommitting myself to the program I have set for myself. I will eat more healthy foods. I will cook at home instead of going out to eat. I will pick some fresh vegetables from my garden and enjoy the bounty the earth gives me. I will not let myself punish myself for missteps. I will learn and grow from the challenges I face in order to become a better, happier, healthier new me. I will stop focusing on the future of "the end" and start focusing on today and the here and now. I will ensure that my workouts benefit my heart and my soul. I will learn something new this month to add to my list of healthy activities. I will challenge myself to do better and allow myself the time to rest now and again. I will realize that I am not perfect and I could never try to be. Sometimes I will fall, but I will get back up again. I will not let the scale control my actions today or any day. I will remember that in life there is no scale following me around announcing my weight to those I meet. I am my own ambassador. A smile on my face and confidence in my step will show them that I am a strong, powerful woman who takes care of herself body, mind, and spirit. I will remember that by taking care of myself I am teaching my children healthy habits. And I will enjoy having my kids with me on active outings once again. I am recommitting myself to this process because it makes me feel like I can conquer the world. It makes me feel strong and wise and gives my heart the fullness it needs. I promise this to myself.

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    wonderful, wonderful!

    Great job on the 10 pounds GONE forever! You're so inspiring!

    And...I absolutely LOVE this:

    "I will remember that in life there is no scale following me around announcing my weight to those I meet. I am my own ambassador."

    SO well put, and SO true! Thank you for reminding us all!

    3975 days ago
    Fantastic job with the 10lbs. You can do it again in August. I know its exhausting but wasn't it more exhausting hauling your butt around 97lbs ago or so? You have come so far, don't stress on how much further there is, because you will be doing this for life, but hopefully it becomes easier and easier. (at least I am hoping that it does). As usual, thanks for sharing.
    3977 days ago
  • SUGIRL06
    Awesome plan girlie!
    3977 days ago
    10 pound loss is amazing in July! Way to go! Hope you have a fantastic August!
    3978 days ago
    You are totally gonna rock august! Great job in July and I believe in you!
    3978 days ago
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    Wow, you are doing so good for yourself!

    Sore muscles are good but it also means that tiny tears occurred from working out. That can cause inflamation, and that could mean more water is temporarily held in the tissue. I can't be all scientific about it because I'm an accountant (medical jargon scares me), but I think you won't see that 1.2 gain hang around long once the muscles heal...

    You ROCK! Thanks for blogging - it's motivating and inspirational to read your blogs!!
    3978 days ago
    WOOOO HOOOO!!!! That-a-girl. And I have to believe that the 1.5 lbs gained was all muscle. Bring on August!
    3978 days ago
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    Wow, what a blog.You are an inspiration!!! emoticon
    3978 days ago
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