I Feel Stuck
Thursday, July 29, 2010
So, earlier this week I felt like I was making progress and staying on or near my [readjusted] goal line. Not so much today. Both yesterday and today I have felt like I'm making choices to not eat when I am bored and otherwise really stay on top of my eating with little to no results on the scale.
I have been fluctuating between the same 3-4 lbs for the last several weeks and its getting frustrating. I want to hit my next milestone and get to my goal reward of a new workout outfit. I told myself yesterday that it would happen this week, but its definitely getting frustrating to realize that I last hit a milestone in JUNE....it's practically AUGUST - thats almost eight weeks of little to no progress - in terms of seeing numbers go down, feeling "smaller" or feeling like clothes are fitting differently or noticing any other physical changes that aren't associated with a scale (ie, face thinning out, more toned muscles, etc). I don't feel like anything has changed in the past month to month in a half and if anything (like pictures taken of me last weekend), I feel like I have stepped backwards. There is one picture in particular of me standing on a deck with a dessert in my hand that makes me look just as fat as I did when I started out. I need to remember to untag it on Facebook - it makes me feel bad about myself.
I'm getting worried that Jazzercize isn't doing it for me anymore in terms of an exercise. I still sweat like crazy and feel like I'm working when I go, but maybe I'm just adapted and not working as hard as I think I am, since I've been going since January and have had lots of time to get used to doing that workout. This makes me sad, because I like going - I like the workout, I like the people, I like the music. But I'm not totally convinced that its moving me toward my goals as much as I want it to.
Which then makes me think I need to be looking for -another- new, different workout. And that makes me tired. I don't really want to go to another new place and learn new people and habits all over again. So, to try to not have to do that, I'm going to try just adding in more strength training, which honestly, I have been neglecting. We do some strength training at Jazz, but its not a full workout that is dedicated to just strength. Maybe if my muscles are better calorie burning machines even when I'm not working out, I'll be burning that much more efficiently.
I just want the numbers to go down and to hit more of my milestone goals!
I know I've made a lot of progress already and that this is just a phase and I will continue to move on my journey and eventually get to my goals. Sometimes I just get impatient with trusting the process and not trying to hurry. Something I need to keep working on.