Wed July 28
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
I love mornings. Every morning is a fresh start. When I wake up I feel full of energy and determination. By the end of the day, the energy is pretty much gone, but the determination remains.
I have been fairly good about tracking my food and that is really helping me feel more in control even though the weight is not going down. We did lose the internet one day, and if I'm at the cottage I track on paper but I am consistently tracking. Just the simple act of tracking is keeping me happier because it is something I have complete control over.
When my weight is staying the same or even going up and I look at my nutrition tracker and see I'm doing ok, then I feel better. It has helped me to realize that it's time to work with a health care professional and see why the weight is not going down. I have started the first steps of working with my doctor to see what the problem could be.
To be perfectly honest, once my doctor and I figure out what's wrong I will probably turn to a naturopath since my doctor tends towards mindless representation of large pharmaceuticals, but at least I feel like I'm moving forward despite the scale staying stuck.
I am learning that there is more to a healthy lifestyle than weight loss. We have control over living a healthy lifestyle, sometimes we don't have control over weight loss. Knowing that I am controlling what I can and working on fixing what seems to be holding me back makes me feel more powerful and determined. I'm happier with myself and that's a very important thing.