Eyes Wide Open!!!
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Well, here I am again. I see now that the main component to success is ALL in our heads-Your brain is truly the "Make or Break" of the whole process. I gave myself permission to do what I wanted to way too early. I could not get my head back in the game for nothing. I am walking on shaky ground. I feel ashamed of what I have allowed to happen to me-I know however that I need to shake it off and get back on track. I can do this-I have done it before. I just want to get off of this roller coaster. I hate feeling like a failure. I just want to do this and be done-no more struggle to maintain. I gain a pound by eating one bad thing- I gain 10 pounds over a weekend-CRAZY cause it takes more than a week to get it back off. What a vicious cycle. It is not fair.
Why did I end up with such a nonexistent metabolism? I see people eat 5x as much as me and not gain an ounce. I have been dealt a card that sucks. But it is my card and I can't be caught bluffing. I need to play my hand and let the chips fall back into place. So wish me luck. I'm gonna stop the foolishness. Peace!!