If Thy Key Lime Pie Offends Thee...Cut it Off?
Friday, July 23, 2010
Well, as some of you know, I've had a bit of a rough food week this week. It seems that no matter which way I went, there was some challenge jumping out of the bushes to meet me. I haven't had one of those weeks in a while.
I've had trouble estimating the portion sizes of some of the recipes I've made, so I flatlined for a few days. Then, I had to make use of the rest of the beef in the freezer before we go on a beef 'freeze'. Beef and my digestion system do not get along, so I inched up a bit midweek. THEN, I had a run-in with a slice of key lime pie yesterday. Let me be truthful -- TWO slices of key lime pie.
If you read my blog posts, you know that I try to allow myself one sweet treat a day. I've done pretty well regulating my calories. I just know to allow room at the end of the day for whatever I'm craving. Well, yesterday it was key lime pie. I had my slice, which actually sent me over my calorie limit some, but not much.
The problem was, I ate it while distracted. I scarfed it down in front of the computer, and didn't really take time to savor it. Next thing you know, I'm back in the kitchen picking off of the pie again. I got a sliver...then a chunk...then cut of half the piece. Then I decided I wanted the whole piece. So I kindly got myself out a plate and enjoyed the rest of the dastardly pie. That's really a move I haven't pulled out in months. I thought I was past those types of impulses. I may nibble occasionally -- but to just eat another whole slice of super-rich pie while repeatedly telling myself I would regret it later? I thought I had graduated from that class.
I want to move forward, not backward. I apologized to myself this morning, and stayed within my allotted calories today, but I can't help being disappointed with my total lack of self-control. I want to gain mastery of my impulses. I know it's not possible to gain victory in the area of weight loss until I can trust myself to make responsible decisions for my body.
I don't want to dwell on it. I don't want to eliminate key lime pie -- I'd just find another vice. I want to know the key lime pie will never control me.
I will continue to embrace the grace that allows me to run this race with consistency!