A Great Day

Monday, July 19, 2010

Today was a great day, although it didn't start out that great. Got on the scale and I was back up to my original starting weight. But I really feel like something has changed in my psyche. I really want to lose the weight and I know I am going to have to discipline myself to get to my goal.

I had a great day of eating. Had a light breakfast and supper and a medium sized lunch and I quit eating when I felt I had had enough. I didn't have any pop or snacks. I did get hungry at one point, so I started sucking on a Tootsie Pop. About half way through it I dropped it on the car floor and it was covered with dog hair and dirt. So I abandoned that and didn't defiantly whip out another one. I accepted the loss. By then I wasn't hungry anymore.

I have been very greedy for food. I think because it makes me feel like if I can't have other things in my life that I want, at least I can have food. I've decided though that I am really ashamed of how I look and I want better for myself and even if I can't have other things in my life I want, at least I can control my eating and create a new thin me. I think that is a more healthy way to look at it.

I hope this isn't a revelation that will pass in a few days. I hope this is a paradygm shift that will continue to fuel my resolve to eat appropriately and exercise. We shall see.
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    I think that once we have an ah-ha moment we are finally free to decide what to do with it. You have the control you want but you need to seize it. Please keep beating yourself up. You are a lovely woman and a special person with so much to offer and who is already giving so much to the world. Celebrate the beauty that is you and realize that you deserve to be taking care of yourself. You deserve to have healthy food, exercise and rest. You deserve to stick up for yourself. You are someone special!!! emoticon
    3468 days ago
    I am sure it is a shift. Keep it up!
    3468 days ago
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