A Great Day
Monday, July 19, 2010
Today was a great day, although it didn't start out that great. Got on the scale and I was back up to my original starting weight. But I really feel like something has changed in my psyche. I really want to lose the weight and I know I am going to have to discipline myself to get to my goal.
I had a great day of eating. Had a light breakfast and supper and a medium sized lunch and I quit eating when I felt I had had enough. I didn't have any pop or snacks. I did get hungry at one point, so I started sucking on a Tootsie Pop. About half way through it I dropped it on the car floor and it was covered with dog hair and dirt. So I abandoned that and didn't defiantly whip out another one. I accepted the loss. By then I wasn't hungry anymore.
I have been very greedy for food. I think because it makes me feel like if I can't have other things in my life that I want, at least I can have food. I've decided though that I am really ashamed of how I look and I want better for myself and even if I can't have other things in my life I want, at least I can control my eating and create a new thin me. I think that is a more healthy way to look at it.
I hope this isn't a revelation that will pass in a few days. I hope this is a paradygm shift that will continue to fuel my resolve to eat appropriately and exercise. We shall see.