Sunday, July 18, 2010
I haven't been on Spark for 36 days. At least that's what I was told when I looked at my SparkPage. It hadn't been updated for that long.
I lost 10lbs and I've managed to keep it off. I'm very glad of that. But I went into a period of funk. I know that the only way to change is to do it myself. But more and more I feel overwhelmed and unable to do it. Really, how hard is it to find 10 minutes a day to do SOMETHING? Not that hard. I'm just unmotivated. I'm mad at myself. I don't like feeling the way I feel. I don't like having this huge stomach that gets in my way and hangs down lower than it really ought to. I hate not having the energy or ambition to do things.
Why am I complaining. Its stupid of me to do. I already know how I feel...anyway. I have struggled for awhile with the Spark book. I finally decided I am going to try working on my Vision Board. I purchased some magazines and I need to go through them and find pictures that fit with my Vision Board. My life is so not where I want it to be. I wonder how I got here sometimes. I just hope that by making small steps I will achieve what I want.
So, I might not be around often, but I'm still working. I'm still trying and still struggling. one of these days I'll figure it out.