Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Earlier this evening, I was reading a blog on sparkpeople. In it, the writer was talking about having a fast food habit. I can totally relate.
Years ago, when my husband decided to go vegetarian, he wanted me to join him. Feeling guilty and ashamed because I had gained a few pounds, I agreed. But not 100%. While I was at work, I would indulge in meat and dairy. And more than once I went through the drive-thru after work, gobbling down a burger, throwing the wrapper in the trash before I left the parking lot, and driving with the window down so that the smell of the car wouldn't give me away. I felt like I was cheating on my husband with meat.
More recently, we had a weight loss contest at work. You know you're overweight when your co-workers actually have the nerve to ask you if you are joining the contest. So, ashamed of my weight, I joined. But I started eating chocolate when no one was around, careful to hide the wrappers under the trash in the bin.
I could go on and on about this. When I am eating in public, I feel as though all eyes are on me. I can almost feel them judging me, like ,"Really, lady, you think you need that doughnut?" This is probably something I'm going to have to work through for a long time. And I'm recognizing that I'm going to need some help with it.
Back to the weight loss contest-- I'm proud to say I lost 4 pounds. More importantly, I found out about Sparkpeople from someone at work.
Entry fee for work weight loss challenge--$10.00
Three and a half months on Sparkpeople--Priceless.