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Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Mixed feelings about my progress.

So. After my pitiful woe-is-me blog about gaining 3 pounds, I lost 2.9 the next day. So the next day I was like, "Nevermind, all better!" :)

I've been making some bad choices the past few nights. It's always at the end of the night.

Had a great day on Sunday. Ate a super healthy breakfast, got some exercise in, had a great lunch, had a healthy home cooked dinner - and then I was like, "I need more calories - BROWNIE SUNDAE!" Boom, gained 1.5 pounds the next day.

Had a great day on Monday. Ate a super healthy breakfast. Dave got a concussion at work so I spent my lunch break taking him to Urgent Care. Did not get to walk a mile to get salad for lunch like intended. Had a veggie sub instead. No big deal. Immediately upon getting out of work, had to take Dave to ER. Spent night in the ER from 5:30pm until 9:00pm. When we got out of the ER - I was ragingly hungry and bitchy. We got pizza at Pizza Hut. I ate THREE BREADSTICKS AND TWO SLICES OF PIZZA WITH A MOUNTAIN DEW. WHAT THE HELL?!

Had a great day today. Had a nice breakfast. Worked out in the morning. Walked a mile on my lunch break, walked to get a salad for lunch. Worked out in the afternoon. Got all my water in. WENT TO MI RANCHITO AND ATE TONS OF DEEP FRIED HOMEMADE CHIPS AND SALSA WITH A BEAN ENCHILADA.

What am I doing?!?!

Every day I think, "Okay, stupid. You KNOW better. Make today GREAT." And I just have these moments where I sin against myself. That's what it feels like - sinning. And as I was walking to lunch today there was a license plate that said GOD4GVS, which is comforting. But it's just like: you are presented with two VERY OBVIOUS choices... one being the RIGHT thing to do, and one being the CLEARLY WRONG thing to do, and I zone out and pick the wrong thing.

I'm not upset, because I know this isn't going to be forever. And I am not upset because I a) got all my water in, b) jogged 7.5 miles for an hour, c) worked out twice at work, d) walked a mile on my lunch break and had a salad.

Ay yi yi, I need a babysitter...
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    I accidentally posted twice, so I edited the message out.
    3384 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/14/2010 8:09:29 AM
    Misti, what time do you go to bed? Maybe you could try to go to bed before the late night hungries attack you. Or I have heard a trick to brush your teeth and mouthwash and everything because you tend to be persuaded not to eat when your mouth is freshly clean. Are you getting in all of your protein and fiber? Some nutrients can effect your appetite. Just some thoughts to help you win the night battle. My battle is late afternoon!
    3384 days ago
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    Misti, I am super glad to see that despite amazing work outs that I am not the only one making poor food choices...that seems to be the hardest part of this whole thing! I can't quite figure out how to control my hunger and always put the right things in my mouth, especially when my 115lb tiny sister is eating pizza rolls with reckless abandon next to me. Damn those skinny people....but soon we'll be them, and healthier for it, and we will be able to appreciate how we got there emoticon
    3384 days ago
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