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Tuesday, July 13, 2010


In my blog yesterday, I was questioned by a reader as to how much did I really want this? Do I really want to lose weight or am I so happy with my current body that I just don't follow a diet plan enough to lose?

So, I asked myself, why do I want to lose and what is it about 160 lbs that makes me think I want to be there? And why do I seem to not care enough about it to stick?

My last doctor's appmt was the best I ever had for cholesterol readings and heart, etc. So I'm pretty healthy at the weight I'm at even though my BMI says I am overweight. I think viewing the pics of me on the beach in my bathing suit with my flab hanging out has given me some incentive. I'm always seeing other flabby women in 2 pieces and seeing me made me realize I'm one of them.

I've mentioned that my sister lost 60 lbs a few years ago and kept most of it off. We had breakfast together in January and when she walked in wearing a nice navy pant suit, I was really proud of her for doing that. She looked great. I would like to look great like that. I also don't want to do it the way she did. I want to do it myself, thus I'm here and on WW online.

I have this roll of flab at my abdomen that I can grab in my hand. It's a little smaller than last year but still a handful. I'd like that to be gone. Mostly I put on weight over all, evenly distributed except that fat roll.

Why 160 lbs? I used to be there and when I was, I thought I was fat then. I wanted to be 150 and so everytime I tried to lose to 150, I would put on a few pounds until I finally got up to almost 190. I don't remember how I got there but it has been within the last 10 years. I have a collection of diet books and weight loss tools lying around the house. One is a dieter's diary where I am supposed to record everything I eat. On July 16, 1993, I weighed 157. On Jan 2, 1995, I weighed 162. In June 1995 I crashed and started taking anti-depressants. On 29 Feb 96, I weighed 170 so in less than a year, I gained 8 lbs. On Dec 1, 1999 I still weighed 170 but my goal was to lose to 150. In the last 10 years it has slowly crept up to 188 when I started SP this year. I think at 160 I would be WOW! I want to hear WOW!, how much weight have you lost and how did you do it? I'm vain I guess. I also want to do it without getting help from my sister.

Enough of that. Yesterday, I was faithfully counting my WW points and I put in my proposed dinner to see where I would be at the end of the day. At 2:00 I was hungry. My stomach was growling and it HURT! I was so hungry I didn't know what to do . I really wanted to stay under my points so I had a large piece of celery and water. About an hour later I was still hungry. I came to Spark at about 4:00 and put a HELP message on the WW support team! I got a few messages of encouragement and ideas of what I could do. I finally decided to have a piece of string cheese, it was protein, and a cup of hot tea with splenda. I was able to go until 5:30 when I sat down for dinner without hubby as he was late coming home. I made 20 minute chicken creole, an SP Recipe and it was delicious!!!!! I ended up the day with 4 points into my flex points but I am real proud of myself for hanging in there.

I walked the dog twice yesterday. And this morning I went for a 3 mile walk with Pat so I'm good. I have my food planned out with plenty of healthy things to eat. Tonight we are going to our local college theater to see Grease!!! emoticon emoticon
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  • KRISTEN0505
    Stay motivated...
    2895 days ago
  • ANDI571
    You did great. I have also found a protein will help with those hunger pangs before dinner. Celery and carrots never do it. I keep 2 point granola bars, and 1 point Murray cookies on hand also. 1/2 ounce of Baked Tortillas with some salsa will satisy me too.

    Keep up the good work.
    2897 days ago
    you did well. Just keep the protein high for lunch and you will make it through til dinner. You are a work in progress. No overnight sensations here, slow is better. You go girl.......
    2897 days ago
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