Friday, July 09, 2010
Tonight is not a good night for me. I'm currently sitting here in my living room, with headphones, listening to Pandora Radio (channel: Sufjan Stevens. Currently listening to Casimir Pulaski Day by Sufjan Stevens), in the dark.
I had a wonderful day. I've been tired for the past couple of days, but I had a little bit of energy today. I had a bottled Frappuccino (I have one every morning) and a granola bar for breakfast. I spent my lunch break walking a quarter mile to Roma's to get a salad with romaine, croutons, parmesan, and FF Honey Mustard. I read Ladies Home Journal (an article about Jillian Michaels) and walked a quarter mile back to work. I did a 20 minute work out at work. I had a 90 calorie granola bar for a snack. I had a veggie sub (bread, lettuce, pickle, green pepper, cucumber) for dinner. I drank all my water. (Pandora is now playing Each Coming Night by Iron & Wine... I love this Depressing Mix. lol)
I decided to weigh in since it had been since Wednesday morning. I was feeling great, so I thought it would finally make me happy. Nope. Gained a pound since Wednesday morning. I know it doesn't sound like a lot. But I've been consistently gaining this month. I'm up from 228 to 231. (I was 228 on 6/30.) And I've been doing great as far as eating healthy, drinking water, exercising.
I had a few slip-ups like having a small bag of popcorn at the movies, having two beers at the bar. But those are pretty minimal compared to other slip-ups I've had - and lost weight after!
So, since I was getting very upset over my weight gain, I decided to go for a bike ride with Dave. Only to find we cannot because his tire is popped.
So, I come inside to work out but Dave works out first. And so while he is working out, I decided to clean/organize the closet. De-cluttering helps me a lot.
When I was done, I come in to work out only to have my knee give me so much trouble that I can't even get started.
I'm just discouraged, upset, frustrated. I'm not looking for anyone to comment and say, "It's natural to gain a little bit of weight sometimes, you'll drop soon, just stick with it!" I'm not looking for anyone to say, "You should try this..." I'm not looking for anyone to say, "One pound is NOT that much." So if you're reading this, and you feel compelled - please don't.
I'm just upset and need to get it out. And no, it's not "my time of the month" if that's what you're thinking, too. :)