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Thursday, July 08, 2010

Ok so this is my first blog....ugh, but if it will help me in some way i guess I'll give it a try. I have been a member for a few weeks now and I've lost some weight since being home from school, i still live with my mom and siblings and i need to get my drivers license back (for reasons not to be mentioned). i have lived in the same neighborhood for over 15 years and dislike most of my neighbors due to constant emotional abuse since i was little....the point i am getting at is because of all these reasons i feel limited to what i can do for myself as far as diet and exercise. In still living at home i have little to no control of groceries, though my mom is also a spark member we have very different tastes and goals as far as food and diet i have no control and no money to get my own groceries, though i do very well with portion control cause thankfully i get full from a lot less than i used to and so I've narrowed down the diameter of my plate. Now i know i could be speeding up the weight loss process by exercising regularly as well as forming a healthier lifestyle but as i have said i feel limited by not only not having my license but as well as being very self conscious about exercising in and around my neighborhood, i have known several of the the people my age pretty much since elementary school and from then till high school they have increasingly lowered my self esteem steadily. since high school i have learned to not care as much what others think but i still get those evil memories back when i try to run in my neighborhood, and i absolutely looove to run, i can just never build up the courage to do it, I've tried doing laps in my pool and doing workout dvd's..but i just don't feel the same as i do when i put my headphones on and run outside, if i had the money id join a gym, and if i had my license id go to a diff. neighborhood, i know there must be something i can do, but i can't think of anything that doesn't involve inconveniencing others.......blah blah blah.......just going over all this myself makes me hate myself for seeming so helpless and whiny.
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    thank you so much for the advice, and the tough love :-P, i know i need it, and today im starting, im gonna not care about the B******* in my neighborhood im gonna crank up my ipod and do what i love to do :D

    SPARKPEOPLE RULE! lol emoticon
    3552 days ago
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    Welcome to SparkPeople! Congratulations on your weight loss so far & learning portion control. Love the shirt you're wearing in your picture - Sheldon's my favorite nerd!

    Warning...tough love ahead. You need to decide which is more important to you; having excuses why you can't succeed or finding ways to overcome them. Your mom may be willing to buy some of the groceries you like. Or maybe you can do chores & raise money to buy your own. And if you love to run, for heaven's sake get out there & run! If people in your neighborhood tease you, just crank up your music & keep running. Ignore the haters & do what you need to do to get healthy.

    I'm really sorry that you're not in the best circumstances right now. I know how hard it is to live at home & rely on others. And I've been ridiculed & mooed at when I'm out running. But that doesn't make us weak or helpless. You're only a victim if you let the crap keep you from trying to reach your goals. I hope you find lots of creative ways to overcome your obstacles. Good luck!
    3556 days ago
    My advice? Just get out there. I bet after the first time you go running you will realize it isn't so bad. I understand the torment, I've been there too! We are only hurting ourselves if we let that torment hold us back from living an active and healthy life.

    I have tried to lose weight in the past and have consistently made excuses as to why it wouldn't work. It is only once you do not accept excuses from yourself that you will be able to change. There will be many hurdles that you have to jump over in this journey, don't let the first one stop you from even starting. Never let a hurdle stop you dead in your tracks. Work around it!

    Good luck.
    3556 days ago
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