Thursday, July 08, 2010
I never thought it would happen......... I have been battling my weight problem all of my life. Even after having surgery I never really thought I would make it here!!!! My highest weight ever was 338 By the day I had surgery I had managed to get down to 284.5, I figured with surgery the most weight I would loose would be about 100 pounds, which would have put me at 184. But, today I stepped on the scale and I was 152lbs. I stand 5" 6.5 tall, which gives me a BMI of 24.2!!!!! WOW I am finally considered normal!!! I still don't really feel normal, but at least for the first time in my life, my weight (by standards) can be documented as normal. LOL Now I am not quite sure what to do...... This whole time, loosing weight has been forefront on my mind. Now that I am here I feel almost lost, like I am not sure where to go. Do I continue to loose weight? Do I try to maintain? I am 10 months out from surgery and know that I still have plenty of time to utilize my "tool". I hear that it is normal to gain back about 10-20 lbs after getting to your lowest surgery weight. So do I strive for another 20 so that if I do gain it back it wont hurt. Or would getting down to 132 be way to low. I know that by BMI standards it would still be normal, but I think that 132lbs on me would make me look like a skeleton. I think I have some soul searching to do now. I need to re-evaluate things......... Any comments or suggestions are welcomed!!!!!!!