Sunday, July 04, 2010
I'm now beginning my third trimester and I must say, I'm feeling sluggish.
The combination of stress - from buying and selling a house - along with the (finally) warm weather is taking it's toll on me. My energy level has dropped and I'm starting to drag myself around a little bit.
Tomorrow is my 26 week check-up and I'll be getting the results of my gestational diabetes blood test. I'm a bit nervous because many people in my family have type 2 diabetes. I know it wouldn't be the end of the world, but it would be another thing to worry about.
I'm also feeling guilty about not staying totally on top of my food plan and exercise routine. I have definitely let things slip. Not to the point where I'm piling on unnecessary weight or anything, but I'm sure it's the reason for my low energy.
On the bright side, I made some excellent progress in my online creativity course. At the beginning of June I had set a goal of shifting my artist's block, and by the end of June I really felt that I had achieved it. I really took some time to examine the emotional baggage that I carry around with me and guess what? It's the same bunch of old issues that are at the root of my struggles with food. That shouldn't have come as a surprise to me, but somehow it did.
So, I spent June doing a lot of journal writing. I worked through a lot of old hurt feelings from past relationships and I started to write about the "big one". My father's death. I have a lot of pent up emotions about that whole experience, but I know I can find creative ways to deal with it now.
I'll be doing the creativity course again in August and my goal for the month will be to identify some options for a new creative career. I think I'm on the way to the kind of change I want to see in my life.
Thanks for listening!
Hugs to all of you - hope things are going well!